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New to this community, new year, new start with NoFap #journal

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Deleted Account, Jan 6, 2017.

  1. Damn it! I relapsed :(
     
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  2. D . J .

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    What happened?
     
  3. Ashamed of relapse, i wanted to hide. But i don't wanna give up.
    I'll start it again tomorrow
     
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  4. D . J .

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    It happened, learn from it and keep moving.
     
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    @BlackWhiteLotus Don't give up dude! I had to reset my counter on the weekend. No P, just MO... but still. Let's dust ourselves off and do this again. Day 3 for me and feeling ok.
     
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  6. Thanks Thomas for the encouraging words! We can do it!

    Day 1: New day, new start!
     
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    Day 5 from my last reset. But day 15 from my last porn viewing. I am really missing my highs now from porn, and I am starting to do activities that I know can lead to porn, like watching you tube videos that are sexy. I am not sure what to do now. Is this a phase that will pass?
     
  8. D . J .

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    You may have to block YouTube for the time being. Block any easy access to P.
     
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    Thanks for this D.J. Think that is a good idea....
     
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  10. End of day 1: It's really not that easy to regain the motivation once i relapsed :D

    Being under stress really makes me fap. I have my healthy coping mechanisms ....in theory...like taking a walk or meditation, but it doesn't always work.

    Last time i was alone in my, having had to do a shit ton of work. But instead of working i was procrastinating until i started to fap.

    Holding myself accountable when noone is watching is hard.
     
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  11. D . J .

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    So the work wasn't the problem, procrastination which induced even more stress, caused the problem.
     
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  12. I guess you're right D.J. :D
     
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  13. Update day 2:
    Really dragged myself out of my bed today, felt incredibly tired. But i know what to expected the first 3 days, so i'm mentally kind of prepared.

    I think it really helps building up small successes, so that it becomes easier resisting the temptation.
     
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    So, I relapsed this week. Now begins the slow process of picking myself up and trying again. In my last update, I said I was really missing the highs of porn. I think I was experiencing triggers during my week, like stress, lack of sleep and lack of exercise. I also think my brain was doing what it has always done, in response to these triggers, trying to get me to return to old habits, for a dopamine fix. The crazy thing was, I knew that my brain was doing this and I really wanted to find another way. I got some great suggestions from this website on what to do in danger areas like the one I experienced. But for some reason, maybe fatigue or stress, I lacked the motivation to put these measures in place. Like going for a walk or getting away from you tube. I suspect, for the first 90 days or so, I need to put some filters on my pc while my brain is rebooting. And I need to keep thinking of ways to respond to triggers. Thanks once again guys for your support. But Day 1 for me again....:(
     
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  15. D . J .

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    You made a mistake, you have learned from it. Since you have done it before, you know you have it within you do do it again.
     
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  16. Dust yourself off, tomorrow is a new day! We can do this!
     
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  17. Update day 3:

    Today went pretty well. Started working out today :)
     
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    Awesome! I went for a much needed swim as well on the weekend.
     
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    Yip, day by day dude!
     
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  20. Okay, i relapsed again. Today is the end of day 3 :D
     
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