- Jun 18, 2000 (Age: 18)
Share This Page
New Fapstronaut, Male, 18
4 days thays good for me so i hope i can progress more and more. Jun 5, 2019
- SSJGisntweak was last seen:
- Jun 11, 2019 at 9:06 AM
Been a gamer since I was 3 (no seriously) Anyway on to the point. I was introduced to porn when I was 10 and it really messed with me I only saw the positive things about it like how it reduced stress and all that and I was like wow "pmo feels good is good and is awesome overall" when you think that it's when everything starts going in the wrong direction it seems like a great thing at first and then quickly starts becoming a negative thing in your life. I was getting into a little more hardcore stuff like rape (only hentai) but I mostly stayed away from me and kept going on with that softcore stuff but I wanted more and more (I can recover from one relapse in 2 days only physically but definitely not mentally) so you can already imagine how that especially since I was young and I started to see all the negative side effects I didn't want to talk because I was too shy or tired and I felt no energy it got to the point where sometimes I didn't want to eat then I heard about nofap (i will forever be grateful for nofap) and it was the perfect timing because I started losing myself I only wanted more and more and I started objectifying women and that's when I really wanted to stop because I was always thinking about it so when I found about nofap I was like screw that porn is the best but then after seeing and feeling the negative side effects of porn I looked more into it and saw all these people talking about how it changes you I read all these things about how good and life changing nofap is and pretty soon I tried because I had nothing else better to do in my life and what if it is true so the first time I went on 34 days which is my record for now since I'm pretty new to nofap and I was proud but on that first day I wanted my life back my ability to talk to someone without being shy or scared I wanted it all back and I was tired of porn because it got so bad and I felt the biggest boost of energy I instantly took a cold shower and felt even more energy and I was saying to myself I'm never doing pmo again I'm gonna stay committed to nofap for the rest of my life (Wrong) after 34 days one of the urges got really bad and I was sick and home alone so I fapped once (all this has been happening since February 12 sorry if your confused I started nofap on February 12 of this year so from the 12 of February to now) and then I beat myself up like the most of us and then I fapped all the way back to square one and here I writing this after a relapse and I went on for 3 days I haven't felt that boost of energy since that day but I'm not giving up because I feel like I could have that energy everyday if I could just quit porn and masturbation and maybe it was just an adrenaline rush (I felt the energy before the cold shower) but I still want to do nofap and quit pmo, even higher than that I want to go beyond what I ever imagined so here I am writing this and I am going to quit pmo because I can't let myself down anymore or make my body suffer and my life is on the line. The more I do pmo the more disconnected I get from being who I truly am and I don't want to lose my freinds or my family just because I wanted to beat my meat so I'm starting over I'm gonna fight every single urge every single day (running,workouts,eating healthy,cold showers) and cold showers are the most effective for me probably because of the bit of adrenaline rush and the energy it gives you in general. I promise that I will quit pmo and get my life back on right road no matter how many times I relapse or binge even if I go one month or a week without pmo I'll be happy and that will still be success for me but I'm going to try to break my 34 day streak because im not gonna go on a streak im going to try my best to go on nofap for the rest of my life.
- Jun 18, 2000 (Age: 18)
I'm using NoFap's new PMO Tracker! Set up your own here.