Mad Hatters

Had porn addiction now for 22 years and it could be why I have been struggling in life all this time! It started when I was around 13 when finding my dads magazines and a friend of mine also finding some of his dad's videos.

Once I was 14/15 I was buying as many magazines as I could and then on the odd odd occasion I would buy a video (only softcore solo female at the time as I didn't like to see penises).

Over the years I progressed to downloading tons of videos which I could spend hours watching everyday and then when it comes to streaming I could be watching 6 videos at a time spending hours every day.

From this I believe I have developed a number of mental health problems and a lot of secrecy on the subject.

I find it difficult to maintain an erection while having sex as I am constantly worried it will go down!

Until now I have been maturbating sometimes a number of times a day although I am doing it less these days.

I feel in a constant battle with myself as I have known for so long how bad it is but have not been able to stop.

Many people give in and say they have an addictive personality and that it is genetics but I believe this could have started these personality traits in me.

I have got rid of a few addictions, one of which being smoking which I did for around 15 years.

I finally admitted to a friend the other night that I am addicted to pornography which I think has helped as it is bringing this problem in the open, at least with one person even if we never talk about it again.

I hope that nofap will be able to help me and also that I will be able to help others.