fred2014!

Stopped watching porn about 1 year ago now. Had a few bumps along the ways; but I'm stronger and healthier than before.
Porn was starting to take over my life, I could easily kill a weekend. I started watching and looking at images when i was about 14, the older i got the harder the material became, I'm not going list what i was into as it just fuels the fire. As I'm a fool I could not see what was happening, really began to affect any social interaction with the opposite sex (or socializing with anybody). [Laughing as I type this] Started to use an exercise bike to get in shape, what did watch while riding, yep porn. One hour exercise with an erection; what a f*ck*ng moron.

So no girlfriend (for sometime in fact), limited social interaction and a porno habit, life was good? No it sucked!

By chance I watched a documentary about porn artists and how it affected them which lead ( thankfully) into a documentary about what it was doing to me. That was a wakeup call. So began my reboot.

First off, rebooting was horrible. Physically, sleepless nights, total loss of sex drive, couldn't get and erection; headaches, cramp. Crazy emotions, hit like a speeding train. Guilt, depression, anger, total loss of confidence, mood swings. I remember watching TV and a female character was killed off the show I was watching, this tore me apart for about 2 days [call we a wuss I don't care]. Even today any aggression or violence towards women really affects me. About three weeks this went on. Then things started to improve.

I picked myself up, started to except who I was and what I had been. A change in life style helped, stopped smoking, cut back on the drink. Eating better, exercise, going to bed early (you need 8 hours, fact). Hanging out with positive people. I stopped using the computer at home (paying bills banking, buying stuff, do that on the works time); there is a degree of satisfaction know that my laptop now has a thick layer of dust on it (and i should employ a housekeeper).

I'm not masturbate free, once every two weeks or so. but now its relaxed, gentle and with no external stimulation.

Slowly, I' m starting to respect and love myself again. The next step is to get back into the really world, socialize hopefully meet a great women.
That's the heading I'm on. The boat might rock every now and again, but only a mad man would drill a hole in the bottom.


Really helps to write this down, if your reading this hope it helps you

Stay strong, your normal.

Thanks for reading
Fred. (not my real name, you knew that right?)

I surf and sail. snowboard when I can. learning to play golf. just started yoga