Believe85

I lapsed again today. I looked at porn video while home alone -- AFTER CHURCH. I feel miserable, defeated, hypocritical. I was feeling joy.

Rebooting with my wife having metastatic breast cancer. We can't have intercourse. I "test the plumbing" because I'm Insecure with ED.

Rebooting with the stress of my wife having metastatic breast cancer and me getting terminated (after 10 years at the company) at age 63.

Dealing with anxiety of wife's breast cancer and other issues, rebooting after several years away.

Getting back involved after not checking in daily. Still having problems navigating the site.

Was just on a stock photo image and felt strong urge to search for scantily clad women, but I resisted somehow.

10 days into reboot after making it 32 days and I'm struggling with fantasies and temptations to do Google searches of women

Going on my first work road trip since I started this challenge. First thing I need to do is unplug the television when I get to the hotel.

I'm still hanging in there. Tempted a few times but this community has helped.

Day 3 and it's going OK.