Post published by pman22

Hello all,

I've been saved a little over a year now. Ever since I found Christ, life has been absolutely amazing. I've been struggling with porn and masturbation since I was 12 years old. At the time, I had no idea it was "really" a sin. Only when I became saved did god convict me.

I will go 2 weeks and be strong, then fall. Another 2 weeks, then fall. Sometimes when I fall, it will last weeks before I can get myself back on my feet. I just want to be done with this sin.

Specifically now I'm addicted to video chat pornography. So I will watch a girl masturbate, and she watches me masturbate. Afterwards, I feel absolutely horrible. I feel like it is even a worse sin and I just feel so ashamed of myself. That guilt makes me feel like giving up, but I know I can't get over this without god. I just don't want to miss out on what he has for me because of my continued sins.

I really want to stop this now as I just did it again and I want this to be my final time. I'm looking for strategies that can help me to stop before I commit this sin when the feelings come up. Ways to break my addiction and maybe some prayers I should pray for gods mercy. I just feel really terrible now, because this makes me feel so hypocritical in my walk with Christ.

Thank you in advance, and god bless!!