Post published by Becoming Jasmine
Hi!
I just joined here. I haven’t actually looked at SP for awhile now, but I’m not sure if all of it’s effects are gone or not. I’m pretty sure I’m transgender, and I really don’t think that’s a result of SP, but just to be sure, I think it would be good fir me to talk to people who have been addicted to this stuff, and listen to their experiences.
I look forward to getting to know you all!
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Saint Augustine
Thanks for joining in.
It's a complex world out there, and we've all got unique stories to tell.
I would be interested to know more about why you don't think there is a relation between SP and TGism. Did TGism start first? I know I started CDing before looking at SP, but I don't see CDing as leading me to TGism (I'm not trans).
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Becoming Jasmine
I’ll try to elaborate. SP came before TGism (I think, anyway), but that’s not the whole story. When I started really feeling it hard, I had already gone without SP for awhile, and had done a week of noFap, my longest streak at the time. The other reason is that I’ve looked at a couple posts by SP addicts who thought they were trans, and I feel completely different to what they describe. They talk about how they fel
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Becoming Jasmine
They talk about how they felt like being a girl would be so much better than being a guy, and felt depressed about their masculinity. I feel none of that. I don’t feel like I want to be a girl. I feel like I am one already. I can almost feel breasts and a vagina on my body, even though they aren’t there. Maybe that’s crazy, but here’s the thing. I’ve then gone and talked to other trans people, and they talk about feeling the same things I feel. I’m still kind of paranoid that this is just SP messing with my head, but I don’t think that’s the case anymore.
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Saint Augustine
Thanks for sharing @Becoming Jasmine. It's interesting how we all come to NoFap from different angles. I suppose to differentiate your position from my position, I've "imagined" or visualised in my-mind's eye similar things, but only because it was a way to somehow arouse me sexually as an aid to or alternative to PMO. Therefore I don't see myself as TG, I just see it like a self-imposed TG fetish I have a propensity towards. One of the main reasons I started NoFap was to 'escape' from this fetish, which is similar to SP, or if I can't escape it, at least not be reliant on Fapping to get through the troubles of life.
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Mckell
Ok. Now I’m pissed. I just wrote two-TWO! Replies to both of you: St A and Becoming Jasmine. Keeping it Telegraph short now! St A- great reply- agree. Becoming Jasmine- welcome your perspective. Gain some distance from “porn intoxication” and you’ll know that any decision you make has been made with a “healthy brain”. Either way, I support you 100%. You bring valuable insight to the group.
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