I know that i won't relapse, but it's make me feel so bad to want that much something that i hate that much...something that actually disgust me and could kill me.. I can't sleep, i can barely eat, my hands are shakings, i need two cold showers a night to keep thoses porn toughts out of my mind...Hopefully, a 30seconds cold water low pressure on my sex keep it freeze for a while, but i still feel like a freaking junkie... Someone could tell me when it's gonna end ? l've got exams on April 5 :'(
urges are energy try and use that energy on something else like studying or working out that really helps.
Thanks....L'm kinda paranoid, and the cold shower was so powerful and so good feeling that i tought it's make me cum at first glance...it's impossible right ? By good feeling i mean that i was able to kick every porn/sex tought out of my mind... I didn't feel any orgasm or pleasure/ejaculation within and i didn't touching myself at all, but who knows ? Is there any case of involuntary orgasm in cold showers ? or l'm just paranoid ?