After 10 days without PMO, the urge finally show up, i beg you, help :'(

I know that i won't relapse, but it's make me feel so bad to want that much something that i hate that much...something that actually disgust me and could kill me..

I can't sleep, i can barely eat, my hands are shakings, i need two cold showers a night to keep thoses porn toughts out of my mind...Hopefully, a 30seconds cold water low pressure on my sex keep it freeze for a while, but i still feel like a freaking junkie...

Someone could tell me when it's gonna end ? l've got exams on April 5 :'(

 

Thanks....L'm kinda paranoid, and the cold shower was so powerful and so good feeling that i tought it's make me cum at first glance...it's impossible right ?

By good feeling i mean that i was able to kick every porn/sex tought out of my mind...

I didn't feel any orgasm or pleasure/ejaculation within and i didn't touching myself at all, but who knows ?

Is there any case of involuntary orgasm in cold showers ? or l'm just paranoid ?

 

Thanks...and do abusing of cold showers be dangerous for my intimate parts ?