Hey there, I kind of have a question, but not really sure how to puthe it into words... so here goes. I like to think I'm humorous at times, I can make people laugh at myself and them selves, as well as just in general joking. I don't know if I'm just 'putting on a face' or what, because I don't have many good friends. Actually, I dare say I only have one, and I havnt really kept in contact over the years. I seem to have a lot of acquaintances though, and I like hanging out with them/drinking with them, but have never really considered them friends, you Know? I don't know if this is just introverted behaviour, or what, but I do know that after I pmo'd I'd always feel realy fuckin guilty, and really fuckin alone. I hope this changes on my journey. I guess I'm looking for anyone that might have these same Feelings? Or can relate? Just curious is all.
Damn, sorry to hear that. Ive always liked lame dad jokes, they're like level 2 puns. Humble, in their own right, and usually pretty terrible lol
Friends are a distractions. If you're putting on a mask to appease anyone in your life (outside of an employer or professor), you're selling yourself short.
I can relate man. I'm generally known for being that one quiet kid. I only have 1 or 2 people whom I consider close friends. "Awkwardness", isolation, guilt, loneliness, and loss of social skills have all been side effects for me.
Many a true word is spoken in jest. So, here's my lame dad joke (my boy found it very funny)....What do you call a bunch on avo's rolling down a mountain? An avolanche.
My fellow kindred spirit I know exactly how you feel. Humour at times comes from a really dark place. Robin Williams even had his own demons and he was (atleast for me) one of the funniest humans to have graced this earth. I too feel the constant need to laugh and make other's smile. Is it a healthy character trait? I don't know. Does that make you a bad person, no! Hopefully through this life change you will learn more about yourself and maybe some acceptance.
Humor is the main way that I hide from people and from myself. Hiding in plain sight as they say. But it's draining. I yearn for true connection with people, but I'm also starving for attention from my own self. So that's where pmo comes in along with isolating and eating junk food, watching netflix and going to the movies. I live in a hidden world but I have found that the more I step out of that as uncomfortable as it is, the better I feel in the long run. Of course breaking through that comfort zone is not always as easy as it sounds. Have you considered journaling your authentic thoughts and feelings on different things? That will give you a start on getting in tune with your genuine self and to start finding what you really think and feel on things. It will also provide relief from that feeling of isolation.
My humor gets me attention from girls sometimes. So maybe the coping is actually a weapon against loneliness