Oh, My point in isolation was to stay away from sin. But thank you, I appreciate what you said, and def will try to reach out to people! I can see that there are a lot of kind hearted people out there, and I know I just have to try and reach out.. Which became extremely hard btw. As in, I find that there is no reason to reach out to them because I already know the outcomes of such relationships. (Except for when I meet people with a spark - that's a whole new diff category_). I don't have time growing social groups. As I mentioned before, I used to have a big social group but I refused to go on that path because I realized that it was a path of sin (It was for me at least! - Drinking, smoking, talking about sex).. I feel so much better now because I prayed to God, and he has comforted me in his embrace.. These times are such a wonderful grace... All you have to do is Praise the Lord with all you have.. ask, and you shall be given, Believe and Praise the Almighty God.. Hallelujah! And Repent, for the time is near..
How vexing, those thoughts, yes, I know them. My take on this would be difficult to take, but I'll share with you the perspective that gazes upon my take. Perhaps it will illuminate why you were vexed, and leave you free to come to your own conclusions. Take it or leave it I'd say, in a roundabout way, that this struggle is about death. The cycle, is it not a series of beginnings and ends? When a friendship ends, be it gently or harshly, what difference is there between that and if the friend had died? Of course, an actual death can affect one on a visceral level. They are still two different beasts, one is much bigger than the other.. but are they not somehow similar? Their eyes are gone Their words are gone They are gone What you had is gone It's just the distance that is different. Death is impossibly far, but the other side of a country is far enough too.. If the distance is never closed, is there really a practical difference? Frustration in the face of this seems natural, then. Your friends are dying all around you, yet your rational mind knows they are still alive. Reconciling that, from the heart to the mind and from the mind to the heart, is quite the journey for a thought to take. I'd say it could be a journey longer than death in some cases.. I feel you here, @HopefulChristian, I'll pray that you find an answer to satisfy your soul.
Meditation along with prayer can greatly help. You don't wanna miss out the treasures you are carrying within you.
BTW this kind of romance story brings me great hope Thank you for sharing. We have it so much easier now with FaceTime, Skype, texting, ect. But more importantly, I completely trust God now. There is no need for me to worry about when/if something will happen, when He does it all in his own timing and only wants the best for us, amen.
He has repeatedly blessed us with what we needed. After a childless 12 years of marriage, I was about to turn a very frustrated 40, when we got our first child, a wonderful son. Fatherhood was my perfect midlife crisis, even though a red Corvette convertible would have been much cheaper and easier to maintain. God knows what we need, and when we will be ready for it, but that does not make waiting easy. I hope you do not have to wait too long. May he bless you greatly, and may he do it soon.
@HopefulChristian just remember that this world is not real and that nothing on this Earth really matters except impacting it for Christ. I know you this is hard to conceive right now but brighter days are ahead ok. Look we live in a broken, imperfect, everchanging world filled with broken, imperfect, everchanging people so you are bound to get hurt. All I can say is hang out with persons who are closest to God on this Earth such as with Christian friends.
@HopefulChristian I also understand how you feel about using NoFap a lot even when you don't need it. I'm starting to feel that way but this site is like the only place I feel like I could open up and be the real me, not some fake smiling, ingenuine emotion feeling, saying one thing but thinking something else kind of person. I hate that I cannot be genuine in real life. Only on this site and I'm sure that any you guys on this site could be better friends that my friends (acquaintances) in real life.
I know I could TOTALLY relate. I feel like I probably should not have been born for this generation. I'm the opposite of the way a lot of persons in my generation interact, think, feel, talk. I don't know a lot of persons in my school and stuff only talk about sex and drugs and alcohol and partying and stuff and I'm an introvert so I can't relate to anything. @HopefulChristian I'm sorry for rambling and ranting and stuff about myself. I know this isn't the actual intent of your thread.
Thank you @HappyDaysAreHereAgain that is very kind. I'm glad God blessed you with a son. Anything is possible with Him, amen! @aarondf no worries, hon. There are worst things to talk about than Jesus and this broken world
Can everyone in your church just be open and be real and talk about ANYTHING in your life, the good, the bad and the unmentionable, like say PMO addiction and what type of porn your addicted to n stuff?
You I mean like we're talking and I'm saying I'm addicted to BBW porn and I can't explain why or something. In that context. Like you're addicted to a certain type of porn but can't explain why. Getting deep into your spiritual connection to a certain type of p or something.
Still weird hon. The point isn't to worry about type, the point is to just get rid of it. All of it is bad, there is no room for distinction or extra concern