Guess it's my turn...

Oh, My point in isolation was to stay away from sin. But thank you, I appreciate what you said, and def will try to reach out to people! I can see that there are a lot of kind hearted people out there, and I know I just have to try and reach out.. Which became extremely hard btw. As in, I find that there is no reason to reach out to them because I already know the outcomes of such relationships. (Except for when I meet people with a spark - that's a whole new diff category_).

I don't have time growing social groups. As I mentioned before, I used to have a big social group but I refused to go on that path because I realized that it was a path of sin (It was for me at least! - Drinking, smoking, talking about sex)..

I feel so much better now because I prayed to God, and he has comforted me in his embrace.. These times are such a wonderful grace... All you have to do is Praise the Lord with all you have.. ask, and you shall be given, Believe and Praise the Almighty God.. Hallelujah!

And Repent, for the time is near..

 

How vexing, those thoughts, yes, I know them.

My take on this would be difficult to take, but I'll share with you the perspective that gazes upon my take. Perhaps it will illuminate why you were vexed, and leave you free to come to your own conclusions. Take it or leave it

I'd say, in a roundabout way, that this struggle is about death. The cycle, is it not a series of beginnings and ends? When a friendship ends, be it gently or harshly, what difference is there between that and if the friend had died? Of course, an actual death can affect one on a visceral level. They are still two different beasts, one is much bigger than the other.. but are they not somehow similar?

Their eyes are gone
Their words are gone
They are gone
What you had is gone

It's just the distance that is different. Death is impossibly far, but the other side of a country is far enough too.. If the distance is never closed, is there really a practical difference?

Frustration in the face of this seems natural, then. Your friends are dying all around you, yet your rational mind knows they are still alive. Reconciling that, from the heart to the mind and from the mind to the heart, is quite the journey for a thought to take. I'd say it could be a journey longer than death in some cases..

I feel you here, @HopefulChristian, I'll pray that you find an answer to satisfy your soul.

 

Meditation along with prayer can greatly help. You don't wanna miss out the treasures you are carrying within you.

 

God is Good sister

 

He has repeatedly blessed us with what we needed. After a childless 12 years of marriage, I was about to turn a very frustrated 40, when we got our first child, a wonderful son. Fatherhood was my perfect midlife crisis, even though a red Corvette convertible would have been much cheaper and easier to maintain. God knows what we need, and when we will be ready for it, but that does not make waiting easy.
I hope you do not have to wait too long.
May he bless you greatly, and may he do it soon.

 

How can we make church more like this?