Checking in Fellowship Friends! 2 Days Free of PMO. Experienced Vertigo yesterday, I believe the culprit was all the additional screen time through a variety of dopamine chases. Rather unpleasant and I hope it passes me quickly. I have already reset some blockers on my phone with downtime and certain apps blocked(social media really). Imagine that my screen time is already cut by approx 60% so far. Have a good day friends.
39 days Middle urges yestarday but managed beeing focused in my work. Yestarday I had something like a wet dream but I didn't cum, but I have the remember of some sex in my dreams. I didn't slept well too, I'm stress for some job taks that I'm doing. Today I worked out and took a cold shower. Yestarday I noticed that the number of the days respect of our counter have changed, so I'm a dwarf! Keep strong my brothers!
Day 343 @Ready to Stop I'm gonna be sincere with you. I was quite surprised by your unexpected relapse. Didn't think this should happen at all... But God has a plan. For every event, for every one of us. Every second... I think your relapse, even if is not a good thing, it will make you understand the others better. Living this time of temptations just as some of our brothers do, will make you have a renewed vision to help them. Even it may help you, and it will with God's grace, to be wiser
35 days Moria, the greatest Dwarven Kingdom, is before you. With a beard and a axe, you´re a Dwarf now. Had normal day today, Didn't like that I spent to much time watching youtube instead of exercising. Today I become a Dwarf!
It can happen to the best of us. One thing to consider is the actual value surfing Reddit has on your life. Is it worth the risk?
Day 2 Quest Item - Sting I realised I am very lonely a lot of the time, and a lot of the suffering I’m experiencing comes from isolating myself and spending time in my own head. I joined an online Zoom discussion group from my church this evening and it was a healing experience for me. I felt my heart unwinding and all the knots becoming undone as I sat there in everyone else’s presence. The topic was Burnout, and I shared about what I’ve been going through lately and they listened to me and encouraged me. I’m grateful. I’m looking forward to going away next week. It will do me a lot of good.
Day 195 Quite a busy day but spent in good company; met some key people in the Church I work for and was encouraged to hear their plans for the future as well as their support for the work we’re doing as a team. No urges, but I really seem to be in an odd place with women. I’m meeting lots of people I’m interested in and I’m not normally so distracted by this, I just hope things settle.
Day 78 Good morning friends! , Yesterday I defeated the PMO evil .But I Know PMO evil definitely come to fight with me again. Today is a very beautiful day. All the birds are singing and mist are covered everywhere. Today My mind is very clear. Good luck!
Day 1 check in. Sting obtained. Days PMO-free in 2022: 187 out of 195. I'm going to come at this from both angles--trying to accrue the longest streaks I can while celebrating how many days of my life I am living without PMO in them. Sort of like Frodo carrying the ring towards Mount Doom: the progress still matters even if I slip up and put the ring on my finger. The less often that happens, the further I am from the gaze of the Nazgul and Sauron's Eye. But all is not lost from one mistake; I have friends to help me back on the path and I am stronger than I think.
checking in day 6 and 7. Didn't check in yesterday. Feel urges growing. Start looking at women in public again. All signs that I might relapse soon
Day 36 (4 hard mode) days complete I am starting to feel horny. My behaviour is not really changing, I still skip the harmful content and try to look away from women, but I keep getting these short phantasies that are hard to control, they just pop up it seems. And tonight I had a dream in which I made love to my wife. I didn't remember it at first, but I felt the effect it had on my body. I guess I need time to aclimatize to the hard mode. @RiseToGreatness thank you for the encouragement.
Day 79, Another day in. Man i cant stress enough how shitty last night was. It was like a hijack. I was constantly leaning towards both ends of right and wrong. What wasn't helping was what ever i was doing there was always a trigger involved. Watching a movie, playing a fantasy game, YouTube, even fucking comic books. I couldn't sleep properly, and worse I think I got something along the lines of anxiety attack. I was on cusp on PMO-ing yet i was able to not indulge in that. It was so hard but I was hanging in there, reasoning with myself. I was almost at the doors of P sites which i used in the past but i was able to rationalize and get away from there. I also had this Hugh space growing in my chest which made me all kinds of anxious and all of the sudden i got an erection. I don't even know what happen, maybe it was constant back and forth but I got hard. Old me would have been caught up in the chaser effect but now this ME. I was able to talk myself out of it and remind myself the reasons why, people who look up to, my duels of nofap match, all the things i was able to remember. And whew, I nearly dodged a bullet there. I constantly told myself, if I do this, things will go back to the way they were. I would like to thank NOFAP emergency button which showed me this video of NEO from matrix taking the pill for truth. I helped me put things in perspective at least. It was a hard fought battle but i won. Now I have won the battle, a bigger war lingers. I have to prepare myself, all the things i neglected came crashing down last night and now i will fix them as I should have all those times. I will not fall this time. HOO-AH
Forgot to post day 3 so here we go! This is my first run trying to do no PMO and not no PM. It's exciting, as I have researched semen retention for quite a bit - and I can finally give it a try. I believe "spilling your seed" directly correlates with having lack of energy - since our sperm have so much energy it can produce life. And why are we wasting that. Anyway have a great day, will check in day 4 later today also
Day 4 no PMO. First day of my wife being out of town went fine. I had some urges but I reminded myself that PMO will make me feel worse not better.
Sometime I hate my brain, Being addicted has so many “automating actions” that we take without even thinking about it. I woke up and grabbed my phone and with literally only one eye open I started clicking away in my phone. First, massages from friends, then reading the news and finally just googling porn pictures. I wasn't even “hard” or horny. I just did it and sat there like an idiot for a couple of seconds trying to understand what I was doing. I turned it off and walked away, but on normal days I simply don’t touch the phone for the first 30 minutes of the day. Having a good night's sleep is such a game changer for NoFap. Last night my wife was really stressed out from stuff in her life and I helped her work it out a little bit in her head and that is an amazing feeling, and I really feel that NoFap is helping me “BE” with her. But that messed up our sleep last night and I feel it instantly in the morning. I’m still here, but just shaken up a little bit.