As the title of the thread explains, a couple years ago I swore off visiting prostitutes since I am a religious muslim man. However, after these years of being single still, I longed for female touch. spoiler alert ahead....... There was not any penetrative sex involved, rather she played with my genitals and I hugged her. However, I feel now guilty and ashamed for doing this and breaking my promise. After swearing off visiting prostitutes I kept masturbating by having a relapse every 10 days or so which were heavily induced with cannabis most of the time. I also noticed that my P preference shifted gradually to more extreme forms of femdom. However, masturbating made me feel less guilty than visiting prostitutes. I hope I can sleep today with the guilt and shame that I feel now. Just wanted to put this here
I just needed some intimacy at that moment, I thought if I would M again, I would feel worse, the drawback of visiting a Prostt would be less of a feeling of a drawback but I was wrong
It's not true intimacy though because it lacks the true love and emotion. You're paying for a manufactured service, its a simulation of intimacy. Remove the exchange of money and that person won't want to be intimate with you.
Of course, I just think OP is being hard on himself when pleasuring yourself alone in addition with porn is far more detrimental