You'd be quite amazed how one can grow and change. For the present, be yourself and the best you can be through God's grace, becoming more and more holy as he calls you per God's own agenda and love for you, and not per your own self-agenda, which always fails and leads to depression or despair, sort of like what you've been describing. Be free in God's love and will for you - don't worry so much about self.
I'll try to live according to God's plan. If I change, I'll change. It would be kind of annoying, though, considering how I just told my parents about it.
[/QUOTE] Again, and your parents would agree even, you're not now locked in based on what you told your parents. See, you're doing it again - pigeonholding yourself. They know you are growing and evolving, just as everyone else is doing in life - hopefully, always growing and evolving for the better.
My parents and I are searching for a therapist/counselor right now. The thing is, we don't really know how to do it.
Lol, seriously? I do kind of recognise the sentiment, though, although it seems ridiculous. In the week after my father died, I was hoping he would be revived, but I also thought that it would be unkind to all the people that were sad for my sake because of his death. Of course your parents will be very grateful and praise JHWH (assuming they are Christians) if in the future you won't struggle with this anymore!
Okay, I see your point. I might change, but it could be a way for God to show me that morality and facts are not defined by emotions, and that I should follow God above my own desires. I could also view it in a concupiscence and original sin standpoint.
YourBrainonPorn.com has a lot of great info. Obviously you're not 'born that way' - its a conditioned fetish. https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/rel...nation-than-erotic-target-identity-inversion/ https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/ybo...-the-more-you-scratch-the-more-you-itch-2010/
I'm not experiencing insane urges all the time. I'm also not masturbating to them. The article talked about people thinking about increasingly strong fantasies and masturbating to them. I don't think that anyone was born with a sexuality, though.