Checking in Fellowship!!! thank you so much for the precious informations, i knew i could count on you guys . well, here´s the situation, i relapsed so many times at dawn in the last months, that somehow my brain (the addict part) got sensibilized to that, and now if i can´t sleep in a matter 10/15 minutes my head starts pumping porn and i became a nervous wreck. the agitation increases insomnia and creates urges. so by that time i have 2 problems: no sleep and horniness. so i get up from bed and follow my protocol (reading, drink tea, night walk, meditation), which in fact has not produced solid results. so i combine all your information brothers, and i´m gonna do like this: first get up from bed, boil some tea, leave it there. then i´ll sit in a chair near the room, and do the 4-7-8 breathing method. then drink the tea (now warm). then going to sleep and follow my breath. thanks a million my brothers. i hope this works . things that i will not do, wisely advised by our dear @Redemptionisrequired : no night walks (the cold increases alertness), and do not enter places with visible triggers (tv, laptop...) to reduce the temptation to a minimum. i´m gonna keep my insomnia movements within the room and the kitchen . great day so far, good energy , although some brain fog is here, along with social anxiety, but it´s very understanble due to my lack of sleep. but i´m hanging the best i can, it´s not bad . Have a great day Fellowship!!! Thanks a million, you gave me "a new hope"
Day 4! I am less thinking about Porn but because I am single I am going on the date apps and sometimes I can see some "hot" girls in bikini and I am starting to loss my control on my self and want to masturbate on them
Also no green or black tea, but if you want a good book to make you fall asleep: "Theory of Games and Economic Behaviour" try it first from the library and if it works buy it. It's like 620 pages and has maths that will tire your brain so much that you will get to sleep after 2 pages max.
21- Hobbit, finally hitting that 3rd week Day wasn’t too productive and I am still exhausted from yesterday (too much workout and rucking), but certainly it was a good one and finally finished La casa de papel! —Side Quests— Workout - Check ColdShower - Check HealthyDiet - Check Learning - Fail SideProject - Fail NoAlcohol - Check NoYoutube - Check
Day 10 Incredibly tired today, got home about 30 minutes ago and thankfully had no energy to even consider relapsing. Was scrolling through YouTube and Instagram and realised how prevalent thirst traps and hyper-sexualised content have become - I’m going to start charging my phone outside my bedroom so this won’t be an obstacle for me during my mornings and evenings.
Cool man, gotta love those cold showers. If you have the availability, have a shower outside (garden hose hanging in the tree above you) at look at the sky and nature around you, listen to the birds singing. This is what I do and its far more enjoyable than a shower inside! Much love to you man
Back to Day 0. Saw a trigger when I was scrolling through Instagram and it was all downhill from there. Urges just became uncontrollable. Might be back at the bottom, but we are going back up this time stronger than before!
Day 8 Yesterday I finished my atibiotics course because I caught an infection while doing BJJ, I feel weak. Having a good relationship with my wife in this period helped me to let go of my addiction and sexual thoughts. I dont feel like I am barely restraining this time coming into Uruk-Hai shape again.
Day 10 Well I got through the day fine. Worked earlier, now just relaxing. I feel like I was in a bit of a phase that's ending, but I don't really completely understand what that phase was. I think it's a good thing though.
Day 89! My circadian rhythm is changing as I changed my work schedule. It's going to be a bumpy ride, but it should be easy to establish a new routine as soon as the work gets constant. Since I'm working from 1:00 PM to 8:00 PM, waking up at 5 AM still seems like a bad idea. Any of you have a schedule like this and can give me some tips on the best way to organize it?
Checking in day 23 ! The weather wasn't that cold , everything else was pretty much the same. Feel happy and joyous despite all the problems in life and wish you to feel the same !
Just make sure you get your 7-8 hours a day of good, quality sleep and the rest will sort itself out.
