Sometimes I think about dying and my family members sorting through my belongings after I die. And then there it is - all my porn DVDs with their crude titles and cover art. Definitely not how I want to be remembered.
So I’m assuming that’s why you’ve thrown them all out? For any of us who haven’t, why are you here? You’re in a forum for recovery. If you haven’t dumped your stash and cleared your drives, you don’t even need to bother logging onto the site. I’ll likely catch some flak for being a phony purist, but what the heck. You can’t claim you’ve started a journey to the West if you’re still crawling East.
For me, it's like being in quicksand - the more I struggle the deeper I sink. I am almost 55, so I have tried throwing away my stash many times over the years. Typically I start regretting my action as I think of various porn that I had cherished. Then I become angry and resentful. "Why am I doing this?" "I don't want to do this?", etc. Eventually I relapse and rapidly rebuild my stash. It's pointless for me to throw it away. What has worked for me is to make my stuff less accessible without actually throwing it away. I did that about 10 years ago and I had a good streak of 2 years. I do understand your point of course.
You need to throw away all of your porn DVD collection, all of it, if you really want to change, otherwise you are stuck in this problem.
…and the most recent 8 years? Dude, you’re talking nonsense. What, you’re looking for someone to say: “Hey, that’s cool; you’ll be fine hanging on to all your sh*t.”? I’ll readily admit that with decades of failure I may not be the one to listen to. But, as I keep ranting, that does make me an expert at one thing: I know what failure looks like. Good luck.
Only in my very earliest youth (14-15) did I have something of a rudimentary stash, which consisted of one copy of a Daily Sport magazine and one DVD which I acquired on clandestine trip to Soho, which used to be considered the red light district of London, now alas, totally gentrified. I remember going around my mate's house around the same time period and he showed me the spare room in which his stepfather kept his stash of porn DVDs: there must have been twenty boxes of the shit piled one upon another, of every conceivable genre. Now that, lads, is what you call a stash!
Flash drives can have huge storage. With 1/3 of the internet porn, I wonder what % of that is porn on flash drives being purchased?