Most important thing is how you feel right now. Don't thing about giving up pmo, just forget nofap. Let your body relax if you are still unstable. This book might help.
Lots of bad things happened and I allowed myself to sink into the abyss , anyways I think I should take it from here . I relapsed like 14 times in the past 4 days. don't know what happened but I didn't leave my house often chose to lie in my bed . I lost track of all my habits I have been following like exercise meditation and studying . I haven't taken a bath in the past 4 days ( I am serious , I can't believe it, I used to take 2 showers a day ). I kind of lost track of time , like I was in a infinite time loop , I didn't know the time fly by . Before this setback I used to get up at 4:30 and go to sleep at 10:30 pm , but now I get up like around 8 and go to sleep around 2 . I didn't even have my food at the right time , in the last 4 days I have skipped my breakfast twice. I think I am starting to develop some infections down there and it hurts even then I put it through pain. Ohhhh GOD ITS A LOOP WHICH GETS STRONGER EVERY MOMENT IF I DON'T TAKE ACTION. If I don't take action I will die like a loser , I want to make a comeback and am willing to give up everything for it. I mean bro I don't even know if I brushed my teeth in the morning, kind of I have lost all awareness. I must change and I will change ,so that I will be able to achieve the best out of my capabilities. NOTHING IS OVER , ITS JUST THE BEGINNING AND I AM BACK . MYTH _______________________________________________________________________________________________
Mate just hang in there you should write up all your mistakes. This 47 day streak which I am currently in is just after relapsing 30 times in 7-8 days I mean sometimes hitting rock bottom helps a lot only if you analyse all your mistakes well and keep in mind. Best of luck mate Keep Going We believe in you!!
Yeah I've been having a lot of fun lately I'm on a break here at the beach having fun with family and friends. Being more closer to the nature than technology. Once I go back from this break I'd be studying next 6 months for tons of exams. So currently I am chilling so that I can be mentally prepared for my future challenges.
I fell into a trap of video games and anime created a few days ago, I didn't realize that my internet-related addictions were all related, if one of them was triggered, all would be in turn triggered, leading me to a full-blown relapse like effect of Domino. Sorry for not announcing you. I haven't finished the H@ckbook yet, I think it was maybe a reason I relapsed at the first place. I won't watch Anime or play video games again, I'll treat them like PMO addiction.