Day 44 Date with a thick NYC accent chick tomorrow (!) Wearing my tightest knarliest polo. Gonna roll up a fat doobie. Chose to train half-assedly on Day 43 so I am not even going to mention the little bit of training I did yesterday. BUT I do not give up. So I trained today: 3 x 300 Jr's (all 3 sets done non-stop) 3 x deadlifts 3 x farmer's carry 3 x shrugs 3 x twist-crunches 15 reps per side
Day 45 trained despite distractions. 2 x 500 jumpropes 2 x 100 pushups on the Swiss ball 1 x crunch-twists in the Swiss ball
Day 46 no cardio and a very slow pace and no sweat but at least I trained. Better than nothing. 4 x DB bench press on the Swiss ball 4 x skullcrushers on the Swiss ball 4 x crunch-twists on the Swiss ball (15 reps per side)
Day 47 walked into the the gym yet almost chose not to exercise. Chose to run outside instead. Loved it! Walked-ran approx. 3 miles. Lots of sun. Absolutely beautiful Friday.
Day 51 Walked-ran approx 3 miles/a bit sweaty. Legs feel worked from 3 days running over the past 5 days.
Even though it's been nearly 2 years since I've posted on Nofap, I still feel like I belong here, and I'll never forget the time that I spent here (2019-2021), and the truly awesome people that helped and inspired me. I stopped posting in Nofap in May 2021. Since then I re-embraced my affinity for M&M (Masturbation and marijuana) but very recently my passion for smoking weed and jerking off has really fallen off. For the first time in decades I'm just not very interested in M & M. I don't feel tempted or compulsed. Not sure why. It's not like I've really made any effort to stop. But I thought now would be a good time to start posting back on Nofap.
Well somehow I've made it to 2 days no M. My longest streak in awhile LOL For the 1st time in many years I have hardly any desire to M. Maybe it's because I'm getting older? I'm not too obsessed with dating women either. Which feels very empowering to me by the way. Mostly I think about doing a thru-hike of the Appalachian Trail. And working. I really don't think I'll choose to abstain for a long period of time, though, and that's OK with me.
Hey man, good to read through your posts. Got some good ideas from you and it's nice to see someone that I feel has similar qualities as me. Regarding PMO and Hard/monk mode etc. I think it's cool to meet your own goals. Ultimately recovery isn't about meeting 'a standard' but meeting your standard. I'm all about defining and achieving your best life and pursuing that. Redefining and evolution are a given hope to see you post more
@ZenYogi hope all is well and thank you for your message. It amazes me that I've given you some good ideas. Thank you letting me know that! Re: standards. I think of it in terms of external versus internal validation. To be honest I feel like I've lived nearly all of my life pursuing approval from others. I still feel like it's a real struggle at times to rely on and believe in myself.
"If you can't carry it in your pack or in your soul, you don't need it." --Norush, Appalachian Trail hiker. I'm putting a lot of time and thought lately into thru-hiking the Appalachian Trail in December 2023. It spans nearly 2200 miles and takes the average hiker 5-7 months to complete. I want to complete it 120 days. I'm starting to realize how passionate I am about imagining myself doing this. And I am also starting to realize that my passion for and pursuit of the AT could potentially impact my life in a big way. There are challenges to consider. Work is likely going to be the main challenge. People close to me tell me that I am extremely devoted to my work and that a promotion is forthcoming soon. I don't know about that but I do love my job and 2022 was my best year ever...and 2023 seems to be primed for another busy and successful year. I will likely have amassed nearly 250 hours of vacation time by DEC 2023, but that is roughly only 6 weeks. So I'm not convinced that my employer (been with same company for nearly 8 years) will support me in this endeavor. For me to be really successful at my job takes a lot of time and effort. I have a pretty heavy workload so it wouldn't be easy for me or my colleagues if I just up and left work for 4 months. But I am 51 years old and more than ever now I am realizing there's more to life than work and money. It's going to take more than a good job and income to keep this man happy. I want to cut my own exploratory path into that 2200-mile-long American wilderness and live to tell about it, and the time to do it is NOW. I'm in great physical shape and I eat cleanly and minimally. If I HAD to hike it tomorrow, I think I could physically do it, and I think I could do it in 4 months. I also have the financial resources to do it (will cost the avg. hiker about $15K to thru-hike the AT). My lease is up DEC 1 2023 which means I will live rent-free for 4 months if I choose to thru-hike the trail. This also means that I will be saving a lot of money while I'm on the trail--assuming my employer doesn't fire me. But even if they do fire me, I still won't have to pay rent, and I'm pretty confident that I will have enough money saved to find a place to live when I either return to Florida or choose to re-settle elsewhere. Lots to think about. I sense a crossroads.