Hey all, Happy New Year! Sorry I was absent few days and here I’m from my holiday break. Those breaks hit me hard, I relapsed and out of focus. I updated the Voyager’s List and @Falcon 003 as you guessed like weeks I put you in Reaching Endurance. I decided to continue my Spanish learning and added Japanese to it. Day 1 here we go...
Day 5 complete. I’m catching drones for the umpteenth time! Ain’t gonna mess up ‘gain. Perfect! “Call me a spaceman When I travel universe”
Day 0 I have not had a full relapse in nearly 5 days where I spent time PMOing. I have MO'd and I peeked at some nude photos late last night, though I did not spend too much time on it. Maybe 10 minutes. Enough for a reset, but not for a relapse which I am counting as a full PMO session (or spending half an hour or more on pornographic material. While 10 minutes seems like a long time, I figure that if I can catch myself within a half an hour (because as I am sure you all know, we can easily spend a couple hours looking jumping from image to image and video to video) and I am able to recognize this because I have an app that tracks which websites I visit to keep me accountable even after I delete my history. I do think that 10 minutes is a lot, but given that my previous threshold for a relapse was half a minute, and I am realizing I am easily surpassing that without knowing it, I just reset my counter if it is under 30 minutes and add to the global relapse around that point. However, I am resetting whenever I peek or I type in the search terms so that I can keep myself responsible. I am going to try Hard Mode, but it is not easy (go figure), but I would like to abstain from P, P-subs, and MO for at least 90 days if not for life. Best, Mathman1994
hey can i join. i would like to go into the wormhole(as per my streak). but i would like to tell you that imay not be able to post every day. but i will promise that the wait will never be more than 5 days. so please add me . I am not amused not only because of the movie but the whole universe of physics and maths. which is far more complex that i could ever imagine.
We have to take back the control and drive our way. As a creator of this challenge I can’t leave you guys behind and we have to do this together from Farm. Let’s make a good start and make ourselves settle through in space. yesterday, I consciously scrolled some of NSFW posts. So I’m starting from DAY 1 again. Let’s do this
Day 3 Hard Mode I have had some urges these last couple days, but I managed to manage them and move on. I have no touched myself, and I have not peeked at all though I have stumbled on some pornographic material as I was trying to get my computer blockers working. I did not spend time looking. In fact, I just exited out immediately, and though that happened, I was able to get my blocker working fully. The company that made the blocker has their website in need of reregistering, so I could not contact them about making an edit to the blocker, so I am dealing with what I have (the blocker works, however, I want to change the password to the blocker so that I do not have control and cannot willingly turn it off). I found a group for porn-addicted Christian men that has a really good track record, and though it is $97 a month, I am going to sign up and hope that the intensive online treatment will help me finally break the cycle. Many who graduate the program no longer use blockers and accountability apps, and they are keeping clean as they have a new perspective in life. That gives me hope. Best, Mathman1994