I wanna be turned on by real girls. I used to never understand how people made sexual mistakes in their life. You know, my friends will be like, "I just couldn't help myself I HAD to fuck him". or like, "I was thinking with my dick". This never made sense to me. I always thought, "how can you be like this? just dont do it". The thing is, I didn't realize until recently that the way I feel when I am urged to jerk off is the way that THEY feel with real people. You know that horniness that swarms over you, you cant stop thinking about it and it drives you to the act. I cant believe thats how I am supposed to feel for real people. Ive been watching porn since puberty, i am now 19. I have done sexual things with girls. However I have had to kinda "force" myself to do it. And every time its been "meh". Its cause I dont have that sexual horny feeling when I am with real women. I want to recover, I want to believe its possible. I am seeing a therapist soon. I believe I struggle with heavy depression and I have for awhile. Someone tell me that I can be fixed.
I'm not a doctor and haven't observed your case, but yes it's very likely that you can be fixed. I wouldn't think of it that way though. Think of it as discovering your true sexual nature, your innate arousal patterns. Since the onset of puberty you've never given yourself a chance to experience them. Don't go in with a specific outcome in mind, always judging whether it's working, or fixing you. Just trust the process. It will take a while. Observe what happens without worrying too much about whether you're getting the right result. If you abstain from P and M for many weeks, you will definitely experience new patterns starting to emerge. Good luck, man.
Oh course you can be "fixed". Quit the porn for good and abstain from masterbation for as long as possible. The brain is lazy because it can get an easy fix from pmo and you are wired to be aroused for porn. Once you rewire those sexual responses you will naturally desire women more.
I guess I just feel broken like I cant live a normal life cause I started so early. Feels like it "ruined" my sexuality and its been such a habit for me, I wanna just know how other people feel and its hard as fuckk
All of my sexual experience since I was about 13 until I was 19 also came from porn. I also wondered if I'd ever be able to feel like that with a girl and I'm happy to say after a few months on nofap you can totally feel this way. One of the last girl's I was with turned me on to the point were I had to fuck her 3 times before I was done lol. However, I've come to the realisation that casual sex is not the way to go and trust me that feeling is 10x more intense when it's with a girl you love. To conclude, this is a VERY curable problem, just take a look at the success stories section.
Yeah man you can totally be fixed. I admire you for discovering as early as 19 that this is a problem for you. I’m in my early 30s and didn’t realize until last year that porn was actually a problem for me. I’m in a longterm relationship but the quality of my sex life has improved in a major way. Keep it up man, I wish that I hadn’t been so obsessed with porn in my 20s. You’re on the right track and you’ve got your whole 20s ahead of you to connect with women and develop your sexuality. That’s pretty exciting. I hope you’ll try to stick to it and come back to NoFap even if you relapse. I think you’ll be glad you did.
Also, I’ve struggled with depression since I was a teen too, and NoFap has helped a lot. Try to build on being porn-free by adding on some healthy habits that you do every day. This has helped me manage my depression. Seeing a therapist sounds like a good idea as well.
What's the longest time you've gone without MO? When you get to 90 days, and likely before, you won't have thoughts like this. Every cell in your body will be pushing you to fornicate with real women. In the meantime, start physical exercise, socializing and eating healthy as much as possible to support your recovery and to build new positive habits to replace PMO addiction.
Yea it was like 17 days i think. i started flat lining and it freaked me out so I stopped. I am super fucking excited to get to 90 days. The flat line is kinda crazy tho.
I am happy that I discovered it now. I wish I did when I was like 15 god that woulda been nice. I really do want to develop my sexuality and I NEED to stop PMO this shit makes me literally not care about real girls.