I failed masters, i'm stuck again in Day 0, Jar Jar has a better grip on the force than I do apparently, my logical mind cannot even get close to explain it.
just get yourself on the right path once more and beat the dark side in you. day 7: Padawan life let's GO
Inside your brain you have two creatures, you have mr logic, his in the front of your brain. Towards the back of your brain you have a small monster, this primal animalistic monster just wants pleasure, the monster will try to hijack your brain and it will make you want to fap or do other self destructing habits. When you feel the monster awaken inside your brain you must do the following 1- relax, take deep breaths, find the tension in your body and let it go 2- engage mr logic, let him be the boss inside your brain, he will tell you that engaging in Pmo is self destructive, he will tell you that you will regret relapsing, making love to your hand. He will scream at you, telling you that when you ejaculate you are draining your life force. Listen to him. 3- put the monster back in its cage. This can be done by literally doing anything accept Pmo or touching yourself. Each time you do this you will get stronger
Many thanks for the advice, I have a slightly different way of looking at it, the "monster" is not a bad thing or bad part of myself, it's my friend and can become a good adviser, both logically and emotionally (primal) I despise what I do, but "the monster" the primal part....is damaged, raging, out of control, I don't want to "put it back in his cage" and become an emotionless robot again, I need to learn to control the monster, and use it's power on my favor....that's my current battle, if that makes sense, to turn the turmoil of emotions into peace like a Jedi would .. Anyway, I do honestly appreciate the advice, is somehow in line with what I'm trying to do, but lately i'd been going downhill, time to put myself back together, emotional management is difficult, and pmo is escapism and coping mechanisms at it's worst, thanks, may the force be with you
I couldn't fall asleep last night initially and had some fairly strong urges. I edged slightly but didn't give in to full PMO. I made sure to not pick up my phone or turn on my laptop. I walked to the kitchen and around my bedroom a few times and the urges faded. A younger version of me would have likely binged under similar circumstances. There are still quite a few milestones to reach but I'm cautiously optimistic and encouraged about the progress I've made in the past year. As with everything, covid has thrown a wrench in my recovery plan but I've been adapting and will continue to adapt along the way. "Remember. Persistence reveals the path." -Jaro Tapal
Great fighting! I believe during a certain period of time, we have to fight. And after passing this time called recovery we can look back and laugh about it. day 8
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Are you exercising regularly? I find that a morning run or workout is a good way of channeling the pent up sexual energy that I wake up with.
Not at the moment, I have to get back to it, almost completly stopped with the lockdown, and that, I know has been part of the downward spiral..