hmm No Porn, no Pornography viewing No PM, no watching P, no masturbating No PMO, no porn viewing, no masturbating, no orgasm there must be a clear explanation here somewhere, perhaps when u joined the com, u got some reading recommendations to start, with links i don't remember where it is..
Day two, was tempted this afternoon again, but "sauvée par le gong" (data shortage, people coming.. then i gave up on the idea fortunately, but sometimes before, i got so stubborn when my mind was made up to watch P i always found a way to) i call this Love&Mercy, in fact such circumstances that are supposed to help me change my mind whenever am tempted were always there.. but i ignored them then, i can be very obstinated and it scares me a lil 00:00 here now, alright let's sleep
Thete are always saa meetings and theyre free. I belive very much in one addict helping another and theres a whole lot more to it than just confessing. The 12 steps are a way of life and a great one at that. Ive over come alcoholism, drug addiction and many other- gambling,sugar, smoking etc...- thru the 12 step way of life.
Another day pmo free. Thats what i want to quit porn,hookup sites and m.The last 2 days ive gotten out of bed to a cold shower and pullups or pushups. Ive been doing cold showers for about a year and a half now and rarely take a hot one. If i do take a hot one its the second one of the day. For a long time i was very consistant with the pushups and pullups but stopped when i started fooling with the hookup site a few weeks ago. Its amazing how much strength and endurance ive lost in that short time. Theres a lesson in this and it not only applies physically but mentally and spiritually just as much. The key is to stay on track and if theres a stumble to get up as quick as possible. After the pullups/ pushups i take a quite time with some prayer(my way of praying) spiritually based reading and usually meditation( breath focus meditation). And a little writing. I got away from alot of this for a few weeks and am so glad to be back in the game. Ideally ill stay on track but if not then ideally i rebound right away. One day at a time
Relapsed day 0 . This time I did not watched anything. Just the thinking made me do it. But still let's not give up.