Posting here instead of aimlessly surfing on the internet. It feels like The urge to M is just a round the corner, although it is somewhat muted. This will blow over.
I just woke up from a dream about 40 minutes ago where I was in a public place, but I was alone. I was feeling really horny and wanted to M, and debated it, thinking that I would probably be able to get away with it. I decided not to. Then, all these random people showed up and started walking by. I'm glad I'm making the right decisions in my dreams lol.
I decided to watch that movie The Room, which back several years ago everybody was saying was the worst movie ever made. Bad decision. I thought it would be funny, but it turned out to be soft porn. It triggered me and I should have turned it off but I just sat there and kept watching it, which led to you know what. Back to 1 day again. I got blindsided by that one.
that’s what I’m finding too as I look back at my relapses. There is often a point when I could turn away. In that moment I decided to relapse but in that moment I pretended it wasn’t what I was deciding. It’s alright. New lesson learned and back at it. I hate the days after. Good luck getting restarted buddy. —- Checking in. I just hit 2 weeks today. My family - wife and kids - are going out of town for almost 2 weeks soon. I have to stay and work - an hour here and an hour there. I respect the warriors in the group who deal with this set up regularly. It will be a challenge for me. Being alone makes me feel down and work isn’t what it used to be in terms of time to socialize. This will be a challenge for me. I have a goal to work on my hobby and improving my diet. I hope the new lessons I’ve learned about defeating PM help.
@persona2903 ! A super-sized congrats on your ONE YEAR of no PM yesterday! You have been awarded the very first One Year "Takin' Care of Business" Briefcase! >>> You have given us all something to aspire to. Thanks for your participation and the hard work you do in your own group.
What is your hobby, if you don't mind me asking? Oh man!! This is F'in AMAZING! I love it. When I was trying to come up with awards for the travel board I was racking my brain after a while trying to come up with new things. Well now I'm most definitely going a year PM free.. I want that briefcase!! :D Nice work Artifact. I love it. Congrats persona!! That is quite an achievement. I hope that this is the first of many more years of success! Good luck with the other group!
@persona2903 congrats !! We all want to get that briefcase to take care of business ! I'm 40 days today so I'm celebrating too!! Let's all celebrate by having a PMO-free day today! GB you all my friends !
I'm about to hit 6 days. They have been 6 easy days for the most part. My confidence of going to 10 is high.
@persona2903 well done! Enjoy your briefcase and your freedom. Tell us how you feel these days! My update: I feel that my image withdrawal stage is coming to a close. The wank bank account of images is depleting. This is good for me - I am getting almost no sudden and vivid provocative images. I feel desperate to see even a cleavage these days! Kinda crazy, but I guess it’s part of the process. I feel like I found my footing again? I’m cautiously optimistic.
Feeling the urge to go to a porn/rp chatroom today. Haven't really had a hard time in the last 6 days until now. Thinking about past chats and who I would find there. But still fighting that urge and came here instead.