I fell so often... it feels like it's been 1000 times. But... here I am standing up the 1001th time. Everytime I stood up I got stronger... I've found friends, meaning, my inner self, my inner demons, my future-self, my past-self... I am ready now! Because I know there is no day to be ready for a change. I reallly want this finally to be. I really want to do this change. I don't want to promise anything anymore. I don't want to do the big talk even tho I know I will lose for sure. I just want to do this. Just once. One time I want to do this serious. I can't lose years of my life.... I read post where people developed much... but still are addicted and try it again and again... I respect that... but I can't do the same. I need to break out...I NEED TO! I WANT TO! I WILL BREAK OUT! I DON'T CARE WHAT IT COSTS ANYMORE! This maybe sounds desperate... but I don't feel desperate. I feel determined to end this! I will analysis my strategy and behaviour... This is... the last promise I give... till I win!.... I promise you that this is the last time you see my fall! Thank you...
I'm open to support you with all my analysis results. I offer you my resources. I'm going this way with you.
and here I am reading this with tears in my eyes and respecting my decision! I am so glad that I made it!
There he is, the smiling boy, or as I call him, ,my Mentor. It felt soo good reading this, my brother. I am cheering up on you. No pressure though !