Day 1/21. A more successful day, albeit not perfect. Online, I managed to avoid giving in to temptations. IRL, I was consciously 'bouncing the eyes' as much as I could. I still had a few times when I noticed myself looking back or briefly staring at a girl, but when I did notice I tried to rein myself back in and shift my gaze away. As in my post above, the most difficult times and places were at the gym in the morning and after work when I had to go to do an errand at a shopping centre - it was a Friday evening and it was just after work so there were lots of girls around. Still, most important thing is that I was making a determined effort not to get distracted and that I was particularly present in the company of my partner, even though she knew there were a lot of girls around.
Day 2/21. Another reasonably successful day. Bouncing the eyes is beginning to become a reflex, though still not perfect and still catching myself looking back at girls sometimes. Yesterday was particularly difficult as I had a dream involving a very specific type of girl and I had to use all my restraint not to search for images (even soft ones) of that type of girl. Managed to get through the day without doing so, or searching for any other kind of P-Subs.
Day 3/21. Got through the day yesterday without any searches for P-Subs. Wasn't perfect at ogling, again, as there were moments when I looked back at girls or experienced quite strong urges, but I consistently tried to keep myself in check and to stay present for my partner. Enjoying the new morning routine with affirmations, exercise, cold shower, reading and meditation, particularly the meditation.
Day 4/21. Had a day at home alone yesterday as I'm not working this week. Was pretty weak when it came to the ogling and didn't find myself making enough effort to do something about it, so reset my ogling counter (my goal is to break ogling by consistently working on bouncing the eyes for 3 weeks, which is a separate goal to no PMO). However, despite very strong temptation to search for P or P-Subs online, I resisted all temptation to do so throughout the day, so staying on my current course for this challenge.