I'm making this post because I'm just tired, I'm at the point where my willpower is practically non-existent. I'm starting a 90 day reboot. If you're reading this, you should too
I have been relapsing almost every day for a few years now. I know, it's crazy to think that it's an almost daily thing. I realize that my porn addiction is anxiety and loneliness-driven. I strongly desire to have a girlfriend. To be more social and outgoing. But most days I despair and turn to pornography as my "way out". I also have Internet addiction (social media, YouTube, Netflix)...spend endless hours on the internet. My anxiety and addiction have worsened since I moved to Miami, an extrovertive city with a lot of attractive women. Any advice is much appreciated. Wishing everyone the best of luck.
Hi. It can definitely be anxiety driven. They say people turn to addictions like this to escape feelings. I know in my case, sometimes it is because I’m depressed and anxious. I used to think once I got a girlfriend or got married I wouldn’t be lonely and wouldn’t need porn. The truth is, those were just excuses and never stopped me from watching it. Maybe the lonliness comes from within and that’s what we need to work on. I also have extremely low self esteem. Having a gf won’t cure your addiction though if you haven’t cured your addiction yet....
Thanks for your reply! Yeah, I recently got out of a 1 year relationship...Porn definitely interfered and ruined special moments with my gf at the time...There were moments where I would prefer porn to spending time with her, and that's where I started to realize just how much porn has affected me...it's pathetic. I'm shy, an introvert, and also have low self esteem. I've been battling this for years like a lot of people on this page. It's a vicious cycle I just can't seem to break.