Here on vacation with my cousin tonight and his girl, and I had an opportunity to with a girl I met at a resort and could have stayed with her and probably could have got laid if I wanted. Of course that sounds nice and whatnot, but it didn't work out because of how intoxicated my cousin was. He has a serious drinking issue and sort of scared the women off. I'm just struggling with this and gritting my teeth knowing I missed the opportunity. But I'm also trying to change my mindset and remind myself how special and intimate sex is. I just am between two worlds with it. Maybe that's the "addict" brain they say, because I have definitely have had some wandering eyes, and the feeling of wanting to hook up on this trip. If I'm being completely transparent. As I always try to be. In safe communities. Like this. Thank you. -ryan
That sucks man, especially on vacation at a resort where if girls are single they are down for hooking up like that, maybe you can see her around again before you leave.
Yeah, we'll see. I'm working on contentment, I used to obsess over women way too much. And I still do. I'm not going to sit here and beat myself up. I really can't.