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Last night I felt urges and I began to open up sites, and even though I stopped myself before I could masturbate, I still started to watch porn. I want to lie about this and keep my current streak. I'm trying to tell myself that it was just a slip up and I shouldn't count it, but I think being accountable is part of this process so, day 0 again.
day 3. Had a good day at work and in gym. I was a little bored but I watched a good tv series. I want to take my life back
Day 139 "Defeat doesn't finish a man, quit does. A man is not finished when he's defeated. He's finished when he quits." – Richard M. Nixon
Good for you for starting over! I know from my own experience that it is hard to admit a foul, but personal integrity won't permit anything but the truth. Always be true to yourself.
Unfortunately, I had a relapse last night. I feel like shit this morning. All those fifty plus abstinent days seem like they have gone down the drain. I have had a lot of anxiety this week due to cash flow problems and it all came to a head where my anxiety was unbearable and I 'had' to escape.
Start over. You suffered a set back that's all. Read the post from Kurosux earlier today, 3 or 4posts back from yours. Look at what you can do different and get right back on track. If this was easy we wouldn't need nofap. One day at a time brother.
There's so much to this thing. All these addictions are just the symptoms of the real problem which I believe is a soul sickness. I messed up with the food again today. That's the problem with ' relapse' - it's not a casual thing that i can stop and start at will. I will marshall my will and recommit AGAIN to the food plan. So glad I didn't get into the pmo.