*disgusting things ahead dont read unless you really wanna help me out * am at 9 day streak and i havent looked at porn at porn throughout although my goal is abstaining from p and m i wanna continue my streak neverthless however i watched porn this morning and had some fucking hard blue balls while peeing it was hard i could feel the pressure and at the end some seminal fluid came out i didnt wan it tho and i flt disgusted i wanted to clean it up with a tissue but more came out idk if i relapsed or not i don t want to start again ps seminal fluid=cum i thought it was not proffesional but whatever lol
I don't know exactly I'm a new member here, but I would say that no you have not relapsed, not completely at least. I hope this would help you
If your goal is to abstain from porn, you did relapse. You can't truly break free from PMO if you don't accept your relapses. But you shouldn't make a bid deal out of it. It is not a fail and it doesn't reset your progress. The problem is that you're trying to define whether or not you failed because you didn't fully orgasm/ejaculate. That doesn't matter, when you went and looked at porn, you already relapsed. Putting emphasis on "failure" and "success" won't get you anywhere. This is a long road, and you will look at porn again, you will probably masturbate and orgasm too. What matters is that you're trying your hardest to abstain from all of that, and the longer you can do it, the easier it will get. Eventually you will hit a point where none of this activity interests you anymore. That's when you're pretty much cured from the addiction. It will still lurk in the back of your mind from time to time, but when you haven't done it in such a long time, it's easy to control it. But you need to remember that you have to go all the way. If you're gonna have thoughts like "one more time" and "I'll fap and then get my life in order, I just really wanna do this" you won't make it in a while atleast.
That's it in a nutshell, but the whole of @CH3RRY's advice is golden - take note. The other comments are not accurate.
i mean my main goal is actually m and o but i also dont wanna watch any porn anyway i have been actually long enough in this trap so i know enough ( thanks for your reply tho ) anywayy, saying this made me feel weak in such a way that i cant control my p habits thus i have decided to also quit p listen the thing is, as a Muslim it is forbidden to do such acts add the affects to my soccer performances i think i have enough motivation and reasons to never relapse again although i still am not convinced weather i relapsed or not i will take it as yes and move forward but at the same time i wont count days anymore as the time i each like 2 weeks every time i keep demotivating myself as its almost my high score and keep saying you wont last much more and end up actually losing my self war i dont know if this would help but i think its worth it anyway if you wanna share our stories and experiences please hmu dude with all due love, peace and thanks again for your reply
The counter does not suit everybody and it is ok not to use it. However, it does work to make you accountable to the community here. If you are going to delete the counter, you should at least have an Accountability Partner to disclose your relapses to. Then you can look into what steps you need to do better in the future. Keep moving forward brother.
I hate to be negative but if your goal is no PM and you watch P then yes that is obviously a relapse. If your masturbaiting it actually makes it a lot harder. Consider doing PMO.
will try to consider that, i also did reset my relapse so thanks anyway for the feedback good luck for you too