did i relapse?

I don't know exactly I'm a new member here, but I would say that no you have not relapsed, not completely at least. I hope this would help you

 

You did not relapse, brother. Relax.

 

Would like to hear your story. PM me.

 

If your goal is to abstain from porn, you did relapse. You can't truly break free from PMO if you don't accept your relapses. But you shouldn't make a bid deal out of it. It is not a fail and it doesn't reset your progress. The problem is that you're trying to define whether or not you failed because you didn't fully orgasm/ejaculate. That doesn't matter, when you went and looked at porn, you already relapsed. Putting emphasis on "failure" and "success" won't get you anywhere. This is a long road, and you will look at porn again, you will probably masturbate and orgasm too. What matters is that you're trying your hardest to abstain from all of that, and the longer you can do it, the easier it will get. Eventually you will hit a point where none of this activity interests you anymore. That's when you're pretty much cured from the addiction. It will still lurk in the back of your mind from time to time, but when you haven't done it in such a long time, it's easy to control it. But you need to remember that you have to go all the way. If you're gonna have thoughts like "one more time" and "I'll fap and then get my life in order, I just really wanna do this" you won't make it in a while atleast.

 

You watched porn = relapse

 

That's it in a nutshell, but the whole of @CH3RRY's advice is golden - take note. The other comments are not accurate.

 

The counter does not suit everybody and it is ok not to use it. However, it does work to make you accountable to the
community here. If you are going to delete the counter, you should at least have an Accountability Partner to disclose
your relapses to. Then you can look into what steps you need to do better in the future. Keep moving forward brother.

 

I hate to be negative but if your goal is no PM and you watch P then yes that is obviously a relapse. If your masturbaiting it actually makes it a lot harder. Consider doing PMO.