Its day 13. The last couple of days have been hard on me. Full of temptations. I have alot of study to do but i cant focus on it and because of that i am starting to feel depressed. I lie on the bed all day finding stuff to waste time on. Idk if i should go on like this or just relapse.
Thank you for restarting. There is no rush. According to science, the earth has about 4.5 billion years to go before the sun burns out. If you need a few days to re-orient yourself and focus, no problem. Treat yourself with patience and take whatever time you need.
On day 48 of 90. Not having a lot of trouble with the challenge this time around. Cravings for sexual expression rise now and then, but I am not prone to act on them anymore. I've learned how to pace myself, do other things to occupy my mind until the cravings pass.
Your brain is rewiring from lack of dopamine and craving it badly. There are other ways to receive dopamine that are healthy. Do you exercise? Run? Do you know how to meditate? Try new things. Relapsing isn’t the answer you seek, is it? Or the life you wish to have in the future. It may be difficult now, but these unpleasant experiences are what we must endure to get to the other side. Here is a quote from a daily recovery email list I am on: “For us, the process of gaining a new perspective was unbelievably painful. It was only by repeated humiliations that we were forced to learn something about humility. It was only at the end of a long road, marked by successive defeats and humiliations, and the final crushing of our self-sufficiency, that we began to feel humility as something more than a condition of groveling despair.”
Thank you for having participated in this forum with us while doing your challenge. I look forward to hearing more about it.
Day 7 of 90 for me. I would like to congratulate all of you who are fighting these urges for a new perspective and a new horizon...
Relapsed really out of nothing......habit just took the better of me. Unfortunately I am back to day0
Thanks for the advice man. I sure want to quit it. I guess ive found my motivation back. I do exercise. I go for runs on sundays and go to gym on weekdays. I have been regular in this. I dont find it hard. Its just the studying that i need to work on.
14/90...just today, porn is not an option. It will try to trick me in various ways, but just today not doing it. Not...gonna...do it. Meditated, went to support group, going to meditation group, calling a good friend, then going to see a good friend, exercising later, practice guitar, and then probably Netflix toward the end. Good luck everyone!
