[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 64
"猿も木から落ちる | Even monkeys fall from trees." – Japanese Proverb

 

Day 7

 

Day 0/365 Back!

 

Great quote.
Thank you Dr Jekyll

 

38 Days
"When you meditate and connect to something greater, you can create and then memorize such coherence between your thoughts and feelings that nothing in your outer reality—no thing, no person, no condition at any place or time—could move you from that level of energy."
Joe Dispenza, Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New ONE

 

Day 61, urges were quite strong late night, at one point I had almost made the decision but this forum is helping me a lot to control the urges. Keep going guys we can do this.

 

144/365
Being really good lately. No urges in the last two days.

 

I was in a condition of body ,mind and understanding, and still sometimes I am now in it because of my body's addiction toward some beliefs,I was unconsciously escaping from reality to a thing that gave me good feelings called porn and fantasies. It was a best way of escaping ,I assume and is. My feelings in my body was right because I myself conditioned my body to heighten and raise the levels of pleasure hormones in my body limitlessly to the level I overdose .but the nature of those feelings and deeds was wrong ,and was addicted _base. After that I overdose my body with the hormones which arises by mind and not doing,there were things that were done automatically by my body.
But in reality,in nature , these pleasures ,It is just our body's addiction to sexual things,watchingss ,fantasizing, playing with our sexual organ. the real pleasure is the amount of pleasure which body is recieving from doing the intercourse with his or her mate to do procreation. I mean the things related to physical matters that is limited in amount and time. But the things related to sexual thoughts and watching are limitless and engaging in these will release sexual hormones unlimitlessly , cause unbalance in hormonal matter and the repetition of this cause brain changes by producing other hormones and making new connection between some neuron that it cause us to see the world differently than it is or in contrast to the past.
I figured out my body liked and loved doing the stuff related to the things which produce good feelings, e.g fantasizing ,watching women's buttom,and even playing with sexual organ with some apparent excuse and watching porn with creative excuse or mind tricks.
But ,the logical myself hated doing those, because it made me to feel embarrassed and be ashamed of myself. So w decided to quit them because it was wise decision. At first it was hard. My mind was full of sexual fantasies. It was thinking about them 50 percent of my daily time unconsciously.
I was able to go without them for a short amount of time, because my body told me there is no reason to quit these great pleasures and told me you don't have to ,these are great why do you deprive yourself from them, you are crazy!

After I lost some of my important assets of my life ,like educational superiority, my body's perfect fitness and readyness and awesome harmony ,after I lost my power of thinking and my power of making quick and right decisions and I also determined that I was involved in body's unbalancment ,hormonal unbalance, I figured out my body was wrong about them. There were my body's tricks.
I decided to change my lookout and attitudes toward sex and pleasures in it and find a reality and a real joy in sex to the point that it help me to be away from porn and fantasies . I reached to the point I found out I should find the right mental frame work or mental model or attitude and lookout about sex that it itself helps me to stay away from wrong deeds and thoughts. I figured it would causes stable change in me.
So I wrote and ponder about it, till I reach to the point that I found this aspect of life ,sexual pleasure,in human is just for procreation or reproduction.and nature put this in our body to guaranty human's survival. With this pleasure we like to have sex, in other words we are doing the things to help to the nature to be sure about human's race survival. Indeed we are procreating and of course there would be pleasure in it to do so.
I thought about donkeys and some other anal , I asked myself "does these animal enjoy from watching each others mate or female one?" The answer is "of course yes"
And "Do their female is attractive to us in terms of their shape " of course not, because our body was designed to enjoy from our own kind not others animals buttoms or shapes .
Other animal can't thinking about the cause and the consequences of their action ,they do instinctively but we as a human being have the power to think and evaluate out actions before we do them.
So, my conclusion and understanding is that these are just for procreation that we have experienced them, and feel in that way... As you consciously stay away from them with this look out , your body will feel and look outer world different than the time we were addicted . Like I am feeling ,and thinking and looking most of the time. But trying to reach fulltime.
And also there would not be superhuman or superpower by abstinence or NoFap, the human is itself super creative when he is healthy and is independent of anything's and is not addicted because any addiction hinder and block the power of thinking and block the freedom of mind and body.
So, we as a super creative creature can build super human .
It is my own opinion about these aspects of life hope it would be helpful.
God bless you .

 

I was in a condition of body ,mind and understanding, and still sometimes I am now in it because of my body's addiction toward some beliefs,I was unconsciously escaping from reality to a thing that gave me good feelings called porn and fantasies. It was a best way of escaping ,I assume and is. My feelings in my body was right because I myself conditioned my body to heighten and raise the levels of pleasure hormones in my body limitlessly to the level I overdose .but the nature of those feelings and deeds was wrong ,and was addicted _base. After that I overdose my body with the hormones which arises by mind and not doing,there were things that were done automatically by my body.
But in reality,in nature , these pleasures ,It is just our body's addiction to sexual things,watchingss ,fantasizing, playing with our sexual organ. the real pleasure is the amount of pleasure which body is recieving from doing the intercourse with his or her mate to do procreation. I mean the things related to physical matters that is limited in amount and time. But the things related to sexual thoughts and watching are limitless and engaging in these will release sexual hormones unlimitlessly , cause unbalance in hormonal matter and the repetition of this cause brain changes by producing other hormones and making new connection between some neuron that it cause us to see the world differently than it is or in contrast to the past.
I figured out my body liked and loved doing the stuff related to the things which produce good feelings, e.g fantasizing ,watching women's buttom,and even playing with sexual organ with some apparent excuse and watching porn with creative excuse or mind tricks.
But ,the logical myself hated doing those, because it made me to feel embarrassed and be ashamed of myself. So w decided to quit them because it was wisedecision. At first it was hard. My mindwas full of sexual fantasies. It was thinking about them 50 percent of my daily time unconsciously.
I was able to go without them for a short amount of time, because my body told me there is no reason to quit these great pleasures and told me you don't have to ,these are great why do you deprive yourself from them, you are crazy!

After I lost some of my important assets of my life ,like educational superiority, my body's perfect fitness and readyness and awesome harmony ,after I lost my power of thinking and my power of making quick and right decisions and I also determined that I was involved in body's unbalancment ,hormonal unbalance, I figured out my body was wrong about them. There were my body's tricks.
I decided to change my lookout and attitudes toward sex and pleasures in it and find a reality and a real joy in sex to the point that it help me to be away from porn and fantasies . I reached to the point I found out I should find the right mental frame work or mental model or attitude and lookout about sex that it itself helps me to stay away from wrong deeds and thoughts. I figured it would causes stable change in me.
So I wrote and ponder about it, till I reach to the point that I found this aspect of life ,sexual pleasure,in human is just for procreation or reproduction.and nature put this in our body to guaranty human's survival. With this pleasure we like to have sex, in other words we are doing the things to help to the nature to be sure about human's race survival. Indeed we are procreating and of course there would be pleasure in it to do so.
I thought about donkeys and some other anal , I asked myself "does these animal enjoy from watching each others mate or female one?" The answer is "of course yes"
And "Do their female is attractive to us in terms of their shape " of course not, because our body was designed to enjoy from our own kind not others animals buttoms or shapes .
Other animal can't thinking about the cause and the consequences of their action ,they do instinctively but we as a human being have the power to think and evaluate out actions before we do them.
So, my conclusion and understanding is that these are just for procreation that we have experienced them, and feel in that way... As you consciously stay away from them with this look out , your body will feel and look outer world different than the time we were addicted . Like I am feeling ,and thinking and looking most of the time. But trying to reach fulltime.
And also there would not be superhuman or superpower by abstinence or NoFap, the human is itself super creative when he is healthy and is independent of anything's and is not addicted because any addiction hinder and block the power of thinking and block the freedom of mind and body.
So, we as a super creative creature can build super human .
It is my own opinion about these aspects of life hope it would be helpful.
God bless you

 

Finally 10 Days.

 

Hi,

I'm new in NoFap. I've been struggling in porn addiction for years already and it changed me a lot in negative way. I used to be a people person but since this uncontrollable obsession in porn and masterbating hit me badly I began feel so isolated and unfocus on my goals. I seldom talk to people and sometimes it makes me unconfortable to be with other person. I have a very unfocus mind and I don't know where I am heading right now.

Today I have more than 400 porn collections to delete in my smartphone, laptop, and other harddrives. And this is my day 1 of 365 days challenge.

I hope this community will help me on my journey to rebooting towards my goals.

Thank You.

 

Welcom aboard.

 

I was out drinking last night. Nearly relapsed this morning. Not to P just thoughts about a bird I used to see. Stopped myself though.

Day 49 hard mode

 

Day 5/365.

 

Day 2/365

 

Day 119/365

 

Yeah, I had a few before relapse, and noticed I had been going for foods that I have been trying to avoid, so I should have noticed that my willpower was running on fumes and I was vulnerable. Morning thoughts are also a classic scenario for me as well, so I can relate. I'm glad that you got through it in one piece - the unnecessary pain of regret is something to be avoided at all costs, and the same morning ritual every day has been helpful to get through that part of the day.

 

Day 5/365. All I have to do it One Day At a Time!

 

This is the right place.
This is the way, the fundamental way to live life fully.
Welcome my brother.
My advice:
Live life fearfully, don't escape from reality to these addiction.
Tackle your problem in your path toward your best version that is a person who believe in good thoughts ,good deeds and good ...
At the end we will all become soil , so don't rush, live in the present, and improve that quality of living.
build a powerful , scientific, truthful inner world about outer world by reading good books,keeping in touch with right people .
I am here to share my experience and also take advantage of yours.

So, feel free to have a chat about all things, even the philosophy of existence.
God bless..

 

You need to have a strong “why”.
Why you want to quit pmo.
For me I didn’t like the person I was.
I didn’t like that I couldn’t interact with women without objectifying them.
I didn’t like the feeling of being enslaved to an orgasm.

I wanted to be strong and free.

Your reasons might be different but there is a difference between sobriety and recovery.