Day 45- I have much more energy these days its amazing. On the other hand, I have become so emotional over seemingly small matters. I guess this is part of the process of becoming human again. I was a cold hearted, non feeling 'robot' only understanding the 0's and 1's of porn from my devices. These feelings are so uncomfortable to deal with but I will have to learn to connect with people on a deep level. As a man in my society, I am told that I have to be strong, stoic and not show any emotions apart from anger. No vulnerabilities should be shown. I will seek to go against the grain for the sake of my mental health and well being. Benefit 39: I will avoid a life pattern of deception and posing (pretending I have everything under control while I am actually suffering) if I walk away from PMO.
You are a champion! You learned the lessons, reassessed and evolved your value system and are on course once again. This journey is fraught with set backs but its how we respond from the set backs that makes all the difference. Thanks for sharing your experience! It teaches me about anticipating unknown triggers and having a plan in place on how to respond.
thank you for correcting me.you right ,message ,sorry .I write my posts with my phone.And it completes the words I type automatically ,so sometimes it happens.
I have gone a hundred fifty three days or so without masturbating at all and I have been aroused absolutely everything you said in your statement was completely 1% true but masturbating actually brings it out to so becau9se if you're masturbating by yourself it's pornographic but I think it's your mutual masturbation that's something different because there's another human there so those are things to think about those are things I thought about God bless you 152 of 365
5/365 Today I felt less urges when I got home from work. I didn't feel like I wanted to masturbate actually and this hasn't happened in a while.
Too right brother . I feel my mind is way cleaner , it feels fresher . It must be from the combination of meditation and being porn free the last two months