[14-CHALLENGE] THE FOURTEEN DAYS CHALLENGE !

Thanks man

 

Day 05/14

 

I missed yesterdays post.
4/14, only 10 more to go!
Feeling much better than day 2, I am waking up better and less bored.

 

Relapsed last night.
Back to Day 0/14.
Feel like crap.

 

Day 10/14. Keeping it going!

 

Day 7/14 Half way through...

 

This is day 4.

 

Day 11 of 14 complete!

Had an emotional roller coaster of a day yesterday. My emotions were completely out of whack.
Last night, edged hard to sexy online pictures, but not porn. But yet I did not orgasm and did not view porn.
It is the absolute lowest I will go without considering the streak being broken.
When I was there at the brink of losing it, a voice told me to just go ahead and do it, and then binge out for a while on porn and start the streak again in a couple days.
Then I had a different image in my head- my counter saying 0 instead of 36. I didn't like that.
Having to start my Stanley Cup challenge all over again. Didn't like that.
Having all of you see my streak counter go down to zero. Having someone click on the World Cup thread and seeing my post about how happy I was to win the world cup at 30 days-- and then having my streak counter at zero.
I came back to reality and held on. I am still here.

 

Day-9/14
Emotionally unstable day. Was my convocation. Too many regrets about not doing the right things during my studies. Everyone else was happy, while i was silently brooding, faking smiles to get through the ceremony.

Damn i wish things were different.
Just want to be normal again...

 

I feel for you, man. That really truly sucks.
You've probably heard this before, but you may be back to day 0, but you're not back to square 1. You're still making progress learning how to beat your addiction. You're still moving forward, even if you stumbled back a bit.
Resets and relapses make us feel like crap. It feels like shit! The impulse can be to give yourself a swift ass-kicking, but that's exactly what we shouldn't do when we mess up. Silencing our inner critic, the part of us that tells us we're stupid, and weak, and faulty and broken, opens us up for self-compassion, self-support, and ultimately healing. Be kind to yourself, tell yourself, "I'm doing the best I can." Positive self-talk really does work.
Anyway, I saw your relapse post and just thought I'd reach out with some words of encouragement. All the best to you in the next leg of your journey!

 

Day 2/14. Feeling emotional today, more down that up. I just sent some encouraging words to someone who had relapsed, and the act of reaching out to a fellow sufferer buoyed my spirits. Let's do this together!

 

im in vry eady

 

sry!! vry easy!

 

0th day

 

1/14, I promise to be PM-Free today

 

Didn't relapse, but had a wet dream. It doesn't count as relapse right?

 

Day 13&14.. Had a busy past 2 days and no time for anything.. so feeling great . Done with this challenge. On to the next one... All the best guys..

 

Day 11 of 14, done. Going ok.

 

day 0/14 for me