I'm so exhausting of trying. This is so hard! I honestly feel like I just can't. I want to be able but. I just don't feel I can. I have refuse to say this or even think it. But . At what point I just going to say it?? This is how I honestly feel. I have no idea how in the world I'll be able to accomplish this. I know that it might feel possible, but then when the urges come they are like a train. Just cant stop it. I just can't. I'm exhausting. I which I can. I still can't just belive this is impossible. It can't be. But it sure feels like it. No one can do it for me. This is something that it's just you with you're sick mind. Like trying to teach a turtle to jump. It's just not happening on my side. I hate my self
Just do it one day a time. If it's still hard, do it one hour at a time. You can stay clean for one hour, right? Repeat this procedure for as long as you wish and you'll be fine. Some turtles can actually jump, btw.
I know how you feel. Been feeling strong the last three days, don’t have any desire to look at the stuff right now. But then it’s as if a wall comes tumbling down and I get these strong feelings of “F-it” I just don’t care and I’m going to do it. How do I maintain the desire to stay away that I have right now? It’s frustrating!!!
This exactly man !!!!! Is so frustrating. And... Thus is the reality. I will come. That will happen. What to do then. That could be soon or later but will be here
The hardest walks lead to the greatest views. I know exactly how you feel man. But fuck it, I'm going to embrace this suck.