People say that whenever you get your urges think of big red X with a black background and it should control your urges. One thing I have found to work better is drawing X with your mind. Lmk if it works for you.
Back to day 0. Bad weekend this was for me. Is there a way I can update my tracker on mobile? I’m having trouble at least trying to get to desktop mode. *edit* never mind. I figured it out.
Hang in there my Brother!!!! We can beat this!! We are all in this together!!! I have felt a lot of what you are, It will pass. Don't let it get you down. It is all part of the process of first wiping the slate clean and building it back up again in a much better way.