Day 5 of 14. A few small urges again. Checked out a couple fitness chicks innocently, but realized I was on a slippery slope and got away, "untouched".
I was actually thinking, (not me, the monster inside wanting it's daily feeding of dopamine), that I'd fap. I never came close, but all I kept thinking about was resetting that counter back to FUCKING ZERO. Nope, no fuckin' thanks. Doing that is admitting defeat. Fuck that, I'm not raising any white, fucking flag anymore. Stay strong, brother!
Seriously brother the counter haunts me, it’s actually a good thing because my mind in a way is willing to fight it despite the urges! There is no pointing in giving up once you have started something! I’d rather fail my body and urges a million times if it is just going to end up helping me in a later date!
