@2525 Day 30/30!!!!! I'm done with this challenge. Challenges finished: 7/14/30 days Challenges ongoing: 365 days Challenges to start: 60/90/180 days
Guys last day for this challange to complete. Hurrah i am feeling very nice to complete this challange.
Okay, Day 15, I've been handling it all right until now but just as before around the two-week mark I feel trouble brewing. By now I know the drill. It starts from afar, like a whisper, just 'reminding' me how 'good' PMO is. Flashes, images here and there but most importantly the little voice: 'Do it, it's not such a big deal! You'll feel better'. Well, we all know what's what. You're PMO-induced mind is not your mind anymore, it's like a different entity - complete with it's own needs, motivations, and ways to achieve it. 'It' then proceeds to slowly erode your will, searching for a breach anywhere - your body, your mind, your heart if you will. My body is calm overall but my mind is a bit anxious and that's where the eventual breach will be. The enemy focused all his efforts there. For now, I am holding him back, I have a weakness in my defense but I will not falter and I will hold the line. I feel like a soldier in an eternal war, we all are. Our forefather stood valiantly on battlefield all around the globe. It's our turn, and this battle is no less important of less scary and dangerous. I'm sorry to equate battling PMO with actual real-life war but it's clear what we're up against and it's a bit scary. This is indeed war, gentlemen. A spiritual war for our very souls.
Tomorrow I will finish the challenge, it was a good time staying porn-free! The daily posting and reading your messages motivated me so much to keep going. I'm glad so many people are fighting against pmo urges and I'm defenetly gonna start another challenge!
Made 14 by the skin of my teeth then relapsed after. The previous time I also relapsed on 14 days. Updating to the 30 day challenge to see if that mentally makes a difference. Will find some time to write in my journal. Day 0