Thoughts of visiting escorts

Intimacy > sex at this point for me

 

Same I never wanted to pay for sex and now that I read your post I'm a lot like you I was seeking to be desired and validation from others but all those things seem minuscule now while rebooting

 

Disease? Addiction?

What does it matter, when you are so sad, that you literally want to kill yourself. When nothing makes sense and you don´t even know how a kiss feals? Everyone has a different story.

I thought really hard for hours today, trying to recall as many sitiations in my life as possible, but I have no idea where I could have done better to be in love with a faithful girl - but many situations, where I could have banged sluts, some of them having "boyfriends". They may give you disease as well, especially if you happen to trust them as "real women" and fuck them without protection.
Many husbands trust their wife, but the children she got from other men.


Money trap?

I don´t care about a few bucks.
And other guys spend much more money for example for entrance to breathe the same stinking air as the "real women", pay drinks for the group, expensive food and taxi just for the vague chance to bring the whore home. For the same money of a few such desperate tries I can just have threesomes or be with my dreamgirl for hours. How many wives only use their husband for resources and he works his ass off? How many men have lost everything after divorce? How many couples only have sex when Christmas and Easter are on the same day?


Don´t get me wrong, I would be insane to reject a loving faithful women, but sadly could´t find her.
If I knew my fault, I would work on it. Or maybe some guys are just unlucky.

 

I found this quote from a sex worker on twitter, I agree with her:

"Nor do I consider prostitution to be a wonderful and idyllic sector, but I know that the way to improve is empowering women instead of perpetuating marginality and making us vulnerable to violence through stigma and criminalization." -@NataliaxFerrari

 

I have been down the escort route quite a few times over the years. My experience has been mixed but I’m not going to lie there have been some really good sessions which makes you feel amazing. However, I have had some bad experiences too like girls not looking 100% like their pictures and some not really being that interested in you. It does get addictive though I have never slept with the same escort twice because I like to have a different experience each time and I prefer a clean slate just in case there were PIED issues…

The last time I went down the escort route it was to practice with different condoms because at the time I was single I had no girl so I needed an easy way to experiment so I could see which condoms worked best for ED. Unfortunately, I did not get the opportunity so I still don’t know what would work for me.

It can be incredibly difficult to get a GF when you have social anxiety not a lot of people understand that because you have to have it to know how it feels. One of my fears was getting rejected by a girl because of ED (which happened once) so I went down the escort route so I could experiment with the hope of being better prepared for the real thing.

I think it’s different when you already have a wife or SO but when you are single its more complicated. We are human and we all have needs if you have rebooted then you are trying not to relapse ever again so if you are lucky you will get a girl eventually but there is no telling how long that will take. If you are not then I think going for escorts becomes a very easy alternative. I’m not saying it’s good or that anyone should do it I’m just saying that it becomes something that you start to consider as an option.

 

I'd go so far as to say making any connection with a woman that is not on a true emotional level is not worth it. All other connections only attempt to satiate lust, which is impossible. Even marrying a woman based on her looks alone is superficial, and most guys won't realize that until it is too late. Most cannot distinguish love and lust unfortunately.

Laws of Nature....

 

yep, that is one reason it is hard to find love, many people always lust after something, or behave in a superficial way to impress others, but don´t connect on a deeper level.
Another one for me is, that because of my profession, I have to move a lot.

If you had PIED issues with one girl, why not show her that you can be a good lover next time?
With the girl I like most, I couldn´t get it up the first time, but even this first time was the most amazing time I had - next time we even had wonderful sex (nofap helped). When she is in a near city, I am with her multiple times a week.

 

Because that one girl ghosted me so i never had the opportunity to meet her for a second date. She was not an escort i met her through a dating app. As for the escorts the website i used had a fairly huge variety of girls so even though i had a good experience with a few girls i was far too tempted to see what other girls had to offer as well. It's no obligation and unlike porn which is a solo experience this is a lot closer to the real thing.

I was in a really bad binge relapse cycle when that girl rejected me. I could not get it up and this was prior to doing my first 90 days reboot. Happy to say i have no ED right now after completing a second 90 day reboot. However I'm single right now and my priority is finding another job not dating so even though i feel somewhat cured i still need to be out there meeting girls to progress further. I am talking to a girl right now she is really interested in me however we live in different countries so for now its nothing more than IM conversation.

 

son goku this will make you stronger lol

 

Let me tell you a little story. When I was a student I was at a student Association at my first meeting with them I saw a girl with a red rose in her hair I said nice rose and then said nothing to her because I thought she was way out of my league.

At that time I was 20 years old and I wanted to lose my virginity because everyone of my friends had already did it so i toke the buss to visit a brothel.


I decided when I was at the door not to do it because I’ve had the feeling I wanted to do it with someone I love. I couldn’t do it. So I decided to take the buss back to my room. Guess who was on the buss the girl with the red rose. She started talking to me and I really felt good about her and she about me.. She asked me if I wanted to have a drink at her place(you know what that means).I decided not to do it and just keep dating her. After the 3th date we had sex it was amazing. That girl became my first girlfriend ever.

I’m pretty sure if I went to that brothel that I would be depressed at the buss and when I saw her again we wouldn’t have that same connection we had at that buss.

Brothels and whores are just the same as porn it gives you a amazing pleasure feeling but afterwards you feel like a loser who didn't achieve anything because you payed for it.

 

If you haven't gone down that route already, then don't. It's highly addictive, expensive and very destructive. My advice.

 

Even if i wanted to see an escort I couldn't afford it anyway lol i'd rather spend my money on things that give meaning to my life....and chocolate

 

U could visit one and then realize that real sex is better or if u hate it then u won't try it again, and won't have urges to visit one

 

Kingpietro, I enjoyed your story.
But at your age of 20 years back then, I would not even have considered hookers as an option, I was sure I will be with a good girl soon.
Not everyone meets his Rose and not even an average girl. What would you have done, if you never found her and not even a girl THAT beautiful and nice? What if finally Rose tells you, you are wierd being a virgin 32yo who can´t perform and leaves you alone? The pain gets worse over the years and you lose all hope. Some men are still virgins, when they are old farts, I didn´t want to be that - especially the last years I felt disgusted after fapping, while craving for someone to hold me, I considered doing something really dangerous/ end my life.

You worked hard and then with some of your money you go for example to the theatre, do you feel like a loser?
Some people take it for granted, that life offers them every gift and that others who didn´t get the same are losers.
Yeah, it is a strange feeling, when your sexy time is over and you go home, but it feels better than fapping and with one girl I feel on cloud 7 even after going home.


It can be addictive and destructive and the chance of getting "healed" is small, insensitive hookers while you can´t even perform may destroy you more. If you are fed up getting rejected (or have to reject unfaitful women) all your life, it may be worth a shot, before you do something even more dangerous or hurt feelings by banging for example the chick of a friend. Difficult decision.

 

It worked. The power of Super Saiyan Blue, combined with Kaio-ken!

 

Good ol kaioken lmao I have been following dragonball so much it's a good distraction from pmo and brings back the child in me even though I'm
28

 

Me too! In fact I'm watching some footage from the episodes of Dragonball Super right now on YouTube. People of all ages watch the show those reaction and episode analysis videos on YouTube are insane! There is this really awesome guy who does recreations of the music from the new show, makes for good listening and workout music. Check out his channel.

 

My issue with escorts besides the obvious money stuff is that they won't make out.

 

Pokemixr haha I follow him too and that exact ost is one of my favorite I work out to some of this music