Hello all, My name is Sam,I am a 17 year old male and I want to beat this sickening addiction. Ive been heavily addicted for the past 5 years, and I feel now is a good time to give up, because I really want to, and My motivation has had a little boost recently. Im looking for someone to understand I am 17 years old, and I have been raised as one of Jehovahs Witnesses, and I have had a bad addiction to pornography and masturbation since 2013, and It is viewed as a sin, and and every time ive done it, I feel even worse about myself. the next few paragraphs is my history , and if anybody wants to team up with me and help support each other together, cause im gonna need it. and also im gonna share my story a bit aswell. As said before, Ive been raised as a Jehovahs Witness, but never baptized, but i still have plans to be, but this addiction has crippled me. My Mother and sister do not know about my addiction. and I do not want to tell them. My mom has been a witness for 30 years, and my sister has been baptized the last 7 years. (she is 18) My dad has been dead the last 6 years going on 7, and that has been super hard, but as a JW , I believe in the resurrection, and that I have the chance to see him again in a world that is perfect. I first viewed Porn when I was 8, and I have always felt a bit of a strong attraction to girls since I was very young. ( I first masturbated when i was 4 I was caught and got grounded from the internet for a while. Then the next time was in 2011, I viewed porn again, but it wasnt until 2013 when i became addicted. I got my sisters old ipod, and I felt strong urges to view porn, so i did. I am now at the point where i view and masturbate to porn at least 2-3 times a day. other than porn, I am pretty clean. Ive never experimented with drugs, alcohal, tobacco etc. I have never used foul langauge, curse words/swearing. I am a virgin and believe in sex with the one whom your married to, so no sex before marriage. I have also been dealing with depression the last few years aswell, really bad too, Ive developed social anxiety, and its hard to even leave the house. But i just started grade 12, and I feel like now is the time to stop. I generally use my ipod ( i dont have a phone, cause i just never bothered.) to view the material, but i do have a super high end PC i just built, but I would never use it to view such vile things. I am so far only on day 2, but hoping to reach day 90 without any troubles, evn though ive already felt strong urges a few times already. sorry if I was all over the place, Im really struggling and I have plans in about 30 minutes, but i wanted to get this out.
Stay strong, Brother. The beginning is very hard, (no pun intended), I'm only on day 9 and I've had numerous urges. Ugh!! There are a ton of resources here and a whole bunch of people here to support you! You are not alone in this fight! Make sure to read through all the different threads as well!
No one is going to do the work for you. It is nice that you know you want to go on this journey. Albert Einstein said something like if you want to be successful in whatever dont stick it to someone or something. We have to be open to our problems and honest to ourselves about what causes them. The second step is to formulate steps against our problems (really step by step and concrete). The third and hardest step is to get out of the thinking mode into the do mode. Do these steps stay positive and happy. Take breaks from time to time,dont exhaust yourself. Get yourself to the point where you dont need motivation. The point of zero motivation and 100 discipline. What do you think?
Hi, I'm samuel too this post is very relatable to me and I wouldn't mind being us accountability partners
Hello , my name is mike, I’ve been a PMO addict for a long time too, my first look at porn was when I was five years of age. I’m a witness myself, I used to be a MS but I had to step down because of this addiction. I’ve been struggling trying to quit PMO for about 10 years, but I finally start talking to Richie, you probably know who I’m talking about and he’s keeping me accountable along with Jehovah
Hey brother! Although viewing porn is a sin it is good to remember that what really matters to Jehovah is the attitude towards our action and if we want to change or not. Think about the difference in attitudes of king David and king Saul. While Saul didn't commit any serious sin, he simply disobeyed Jehovah, he was not willing to change. He didn't view his actions as sinful and he was finding excuses instead. That is why Jehovah "threw him out of his face". However David committed adultery and murdered an innocent man. Two sins that according to Mosaic law were punishable by death. Yet his attitude was completely different. Yes he bore serious consequences, but he learned from them and carried on. The addiction to PMO carries serious consequences, but it is your attitude you have toward that. You are here because you want to change and that is what really matters. Proverbs 24:16 Keep it up buddy!
Hi Sam, You have had a lot to cope with in your still young life, i'm sorry to hear. Support here is great so if you gonna succeed fighting this thing, chances are better here than anywhere else i guess. Just don't feel guilty for all this, it will hamper you to love yourself and get a positive self image, and without that you can't be happy with yourself or somebody else. Just go for it and remember we all are in this together, you're not alone
I’m one of JW as well. Lets do this together - I will comeback to this tread time to time. My goal is to reach 1 month then 1 year. And forever and build hatred towards what is bad in Jehovah’s eyes.
I've been away from it for a while, but I still check in every once in a while. I need to be more proactive in my healing.