Hey! I just read through your whole post. And the one thing I took away from it is that you really went all out in your transition. I won't pretend to have a deeper knowledge than I do (I'm a stagehand, not a doctor) But the one thing I can tell you for SURE is that if you want to go back, you'll need to do something to counteract all the hormones you've taken over the years. Stopping the estrogen, and beginning testosterone replacement therapy (under the supervision of a urologist and HRT) doctor would be essential. As to the question of WHETHER or not you should do it... I'd say, absolutely yes! If it doesn't work out, there's nothing stopping you from going back. But if it does work out, you may open up a whole new world of happiness and fulfillment. One final piece of advice I'd like to offer is this... the absolute brainwashing you subjected yourself to through "sissy hypno" has got to be dealt with as well. That is absolutely NOT a healthy, wholesome, or life-affirming genre to subject yourself to. Whether you start down the road to reclaiming your manhood, or stay where you are, I really urge you to cut that shit out of your life. And don't fall for the trap of "anti-sissy hypno." It's just more trash embedded into a terrible, pornographic value system! Good luck! I hope you find yourself, and find happiness!
For anyone stumbling upon my old journal here, I thought you might want to link to my new one, here: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...g-sugar-daddies-for-expensive-fashion.177939/ So many good things have happened since these old journals.
Hey Jamie, As I was reading your story, I couldn't help but get in your corner. I may not have had the same issues due to the fact I was always pretty manly in stature, however I still understand that feeling of loneliness and it sucks. I can see how someone can get caught up in one life style where you feel you're the center of the world & not want to return to being lonely. I used to be addicted to watching porn on sex việt, and that's not good. Normally I would never approve of such a lifestyle (not saying my approval means anything) but actually reading your back story. I think you should definitely try to figure out 100% what's best for you, whether it's being Jamie or James. Best of luck to you!! Keep on keeping on!
You have an inside knowledge here that most guys never will. I am a smallish man that likes women, and have struggled my whole life because of my size and masculinity. (I would never be able to pass as a woman btw). You are a few years younger than my youngest of 3 kids. I think there is no way you are going to really be attracted to women, and no way they are going to be attracted to you. (you know this) I do think you can have a good life being a gay man, it has never been easier to do this, and I know it has its challenges. I say this as a pretty conservative guy, that some accuse of being closeted. Your chances of being happy as a hetero man are slim to none Im afraid. You dont have to be a woman, just be a very gay man