It is normal to relapse but relapse is only detrimental if you don't get back on the streak. Hopefully you were able to asses what went wrong so that you will avoid that in the future.
It is a good streak. I encourage you to get involved in the community more by sharing your experiences, reading and commenting when appropriate. It helped me to keep nofap at the top of my priorities list and also helped me manage uncomfortable feelings (stress, anxiety..etc)
Hahahaha! U r right. But we dont need to vindicate ourselves. Let the people find it out also, I see many of my Indian Bhais are coming here on Nofap. They realised finally. Huh!
यहाँ हिन्दी किस किस को आती है ? एक़ कांड बताता हू यहाँ नॉफप पर जो मेरे साथ हुआ. तुम भी ध्यान रखना आगे से.
तो सुनो। इस साइट पर एक तो गे,लेसबियन,शादी शुदा जैसे लोग भी मौजूद हैं यह तो मुझे पता था लेकिन आगे जाकर category और वाइड हो जाती है जैसे कि काल गल,रंडी और कैम गल जिसके साथ मैं फसते फसते बचा। साली पहले तो वही रंडी रोना के उसे यह सब पसंद नहीं लेकिन हालात ने उसे करने पर मजबूर कर दिया। उसके बाद धीरे धीरे वह off topic बात करने लगी। अपने शारीरिक सम्बन्ध का पूरा पूरा चित्र करॾ शुरू किया मुझे लगा के वह अपनी आप बीती सुना रही है लेकिन असल में वह मुझे दावत दे रही थी। साथ ही साथ अपने गुप्त आंगो की तारीफ़ लगातार किया। वह यहाँ अपनी बुरी आदत छोड़ ने के लिए आइ थी लेकिन उसे blowjob न दे पाने का बहुत अफसोस था लो कर लो बात। और सुनो अपने पुरूष मित्र से कहती हैं कि देखो अंदर डालो और निकाल लेना और जब उसने धकका लगा लगा के माल अंदर छोड़ दिया तो उनके हिसाब से यह एक रेप है। हद तो तब हो गई जब उसने मुझसे मेरा साइज पूछा, माँ की आ्ंख मेरी खोपड़ी फायर हो गई। हालांकि मेरे पूछने पर जवाब ठीक से तो नहीं दिया लेकिन एक दिन उसने मेरी Skype आइ डी मांगी तब मैंने समझ लिया के पीछे हट ना ही अब ठीक है। और बाद में वह भयंकर रिलैपस हो गई और यह भी बताया के वह इस से पहले ४ लोगों को नो फप पर शिकार बना चुकी हैं। और किसी ५वे्ं के साथ लगी हुई थी जिसके साथ वह शायद शारीरिक भी हुई। और अब वह दोबारा रीबुट कर रही है लेकिन मुझे पता है वह झुठ बोल रही है।वह एक Nympho है। सेक्स की उसे भूख रहती है। बहर हाल तुम लोग ऐसी लड़की से सावधान रहना। वह Canadian थी २१ साल की।
I relapsed very bad. For the past several days, I have been spending several hours a day on PM and several Os. No matter what I do, I am having difficulty to stop it. Sometimes I feel it is so hard wired in my brain, it will be impossible to come out. It feels like an everyday battle for rest of my life! Not sure whatelse I can try. :-(
@vasu I know it is very disappointing to have such relapses but don't lose hope. What you are experiencing is the cumulative effects of past P viewing and your mind got used to it. Trying to overcome that by sheer will power is very difficult. You probably can do it early on in this habit but after years of abuse mind craves for it and overcomes any obstacles you put in its path . What you have to do is generate a counter force to it on a methodical and disciplined way little by little. What worked for me was coming to this site on a regular basis(almost every day) and spending at least 15 minutes reading and posting. While you are putting this effort you may still encounter relapses but you have to continue coming here and get your self involved and eventually you will overcome this. Your conviction in nofap will overcome PMO. I know this works because I quit watching porn for last 11 months after 2 decades of continuous PMO. Our mind is very elastic yet it needs time and space to exhibit that quality.
Your username makes me think you're a military man? Or perhaps I'm just wrong. Either way I love the progress I'm seeing in your signature
@LakeMichigan Thanks! I have 3 decades of P under my belt. It is going to take a lot longer to overcome. I will continue to keep visiting the site for next several days and post something.
@LakeMichigan, Thank you! Heading towards end of week two. Feeling of restless and pointlessness is beginning to set into me again. I am extremely busy, but that is not helping the situation. I am think, what the fuck, 30 mins of dopamine rush is not going to harm anyone. But I know I have been in that situation before, it goes from 30 mins of waste to 30hrs of waste and by the time I realize, I will waste a part of my life doing nothing useful.
@vasu congratulations on your two weeks milestone. Yes, in the beginning you will notice how everything around you has all these triggers. I actually stopped watching TV, movies unless I was sure it has no triggers in it and I also browsed web without pictures and avoided going to the places where I may be exposed to triggers but over a period of time you will develop confidence in your self that you will be able to handle unexpected triggers because after all the only thing you can control is your self.
I Also stopped watching tv and social media is also a huge enemy. Guys minimise your social media stuff and go out to socialise
Thanks, for the support LakeMichgan and Arush. Yes, i watch a lot of tv/movies, my alternate addiction. It is slowly eroding my resolve. The triggers are everywhere. I tried to watch intellectual movies, but they are a rare find.