Day 4, 5, 6, & 7. Checking in. Day 7 - Padawan The effects of the dark side was here a couple days. It was present even when I didn't fully relapse? I only tasted it (Looking at the dark side of P only) I still passed. Urges to fully embrace it was there. Fellow Jedis, did you know how I passed? Well sometimes the solution it is called exercising If you haven't done so already Another remake?? Awesome I forgot to say this early on. Finished The Bad Batch Finale recently and want to say my "Midi-chlorians" is rising lol. Because it was somewhat related to it's final season. Come on Chuck! I was struggling too lol. Let's go fellow Jedis Jedi out
Day 12 - Padawan Remember Lou Bloom (Chuck) and other fellow Jedis here who are here. Exercise can help if your triggered. If the dark side tempts you then that can be an option. Simply tip. Fight the dark side Jedi out
Day 3 Back on track. I went through a cycle of the chaser effect for a few days and I waited to get at least a fews days of a streak to start posting again. I want to make it to a week again, that's where I start to feel more like my normal self. So the one thing that threw me off course in the first place was having a night of drinking and the resulting hangover the next day that triggered my pmo feelings. That's happened a couple times for me now where drinking caused a relapse for me so I might as well not drink anymore, or if I do it's only one beer. On the positive side I'm doing a lot better with my piano goals. I will have to decide if I'm going to register or not for the RCM exam for in August very soon. Trying to prepare for the exam has driven out some complacency from me and I think given me a healthy feeling of anxiety if there is any kind of healthy anxiety. It feels much better than compared to the daily grind kind of anxiety where there's no real light at the end of the tunnel. That kind of anxiety is just survival mode. But the anxiety associated with success and achievement doesn't feel so heavy. And if I'm able to notice what kind of thoughts I'm having that is creating that anxiety sometimes I'm able to undo some of it by seeing that the thoughts are false and irrational. Before what I thought was impossible was actually something I made up in my head and that succeeding in these piano exams and becoming a teacher is much more possible than I once imagined. I was so wrong about what was possible that I could have been certified at least 5 years ago. Back then I had given up on becoming a teacher or playing the piano at all because I thought I just wasn't capable of it. But looking back now with more information about whats required and what I'm really capable of, I've realized that I gave up simply because I believed false ideas about myself and my situation, and that I didn't have the information that I needed to understand how to achieve my goals. I'm not running away from who I am anymore. I'm going to do what I want to do with my life and I'm not going to anyone for approval if it's okay or not. I'm just going to do it because it's right for me. I can feel it sometimes, a sense of excitement rather than anxiety. Where I see myself achieving what I want and its freeing. All of this I think is how I get over pmo in the end. Making my life into the vision that I see in my mind.
Day 13 - Padawan Dovahkin, I don't know why I say Davinkin or so. Any way, here is what I heard from someone's words. "I drank (alcohol) then I fapped". Truth be told? I believe so. Just my take. I barely drink for a certain beverage that contains alcohol if not I don't drink alcohol at all in my daily life. As much as possible, no alcohol. Zero to none. It can lead to a relapse. Most definitely it does for sure. I keep telling JEDI KNIGHT as well. That's it. And the rest lurking around here. Stop copying me. You know that I am right? Lol Fear is the path to the dark side. And so I fap because of fear?? Or is it the normal way to fall which is because "I am corny"?? That is the normal way to fall to the dark side you outsiders. That's it. Jedi out
Day 16 - Padawan Speaking of Angel. He is back I was about to say again here. Project #3 is helping me a bit in few days Angel. and JEDI KNIGHT friends. I got a few components but it is not fully setup. Working fine indeed. And it is helping me fight the dark side. But I still need to buy more the things as I said just like Project# 2. I am more focused on Project #3 and so I am saving for that for now. Once it is fully set it up. Then I will move onto number 2. Then I will somehow use it to my advantage. Number 3 will work wonders for sure. It will indeed help me on this NoFap journey. Enough of that. Last thing, I recent saw the image of Jedi Council Member. Now it showed up here on the first page of here in The Jedi Temple?? That is the same image I used at the time when I was on the Jedi Council Member rank but smaller version here lol. Weird but finally there is an image. I like that image for that rank. Because Anakin is on there as well That's it fellow Jedis Fight the dark side Jedi out
