116 days, I made it!

Hello, dear community.
It's only 28 days passed but I'm feeling happy. First of all I've beaten my nofap record ever. For someone here it's a short term but I should say it's a hardest pat of a nofap journey!
I fapping since I remember myself as a human)) I've found first P. VHS when I was 7 years old, I think. It is sick, I know)) Now I'm 27. I had numerous triesof PMO since I discovered this community (more than 15) but they all crushed on 12-16 day. There is a rule, how to develop a habit - you should be stick to it for no less than 21 day. So I think It works in opposite direction too.

What I'm trying to say is that PMO became a very powerful dopamine and, most important, sexual activity trigger in your brain. You should tear this connection off as quickly as possible. It's really affects your social life by affecting your sexual life. It takes away your natural need to have some girls in your phonebook (you know what I mean))) You just become a weirdo among your 'normal' friends (as for me I have a lot of such weirdo guys and they all think that nobody knows)). So you have to understand it and next time when you feel this urges - take a break and think that this "intercourse with a monitor" ruining your life. It helps a lot! The far you depart from PMO the less intense and important it becomes.

I wanna share some changes I noticed. Became more sober, audacious and energetic. My overal mood increased. And somehow, I become noticing those fappers around me - among my friends company(maybe It's like a placebo affect) Now I can become hard only of a thought of a real sexual intercourse, which was unreal a month ago. But still can't have an orgasm from the touch only. PMO became uninterested to me, I don't have this urges any more. And it's only 1 month after!

But I think I have PEID, though. I was with a woman a week ago(after 20 days of PMO) and It wasn’t a true sex but kinda massage. It took me a l-o-o-o-t more time to to become hard, as I would do it myself in front of the monitor. But still I succeeded and had an orgasm. Girl knew how to do it right And Still there is a long way ahead.
By the way, next day I had a strong "chaser effect". I wanted more, especially when I started to google some new saloons. Cravings was so f***ing strong, I thought it would blow my brain of my skull. I was boiling. I tried to fap without any visual stimulus, but felt almost nothing. So I stopped. And now I feel some kind of flatline.

We should abstain from porn! It's killings as, killing a Man in us. It's a most dangerous drug (harder than the nicotine) I wish me and YOU - all the luck and to have enough strength to hold on and change your life once and forever!!!

UPdt.My Success Storie ended on 99 day.
I returned to my daily "habit" for almost 2 month. It obsessed me.

UPdt2. 116 days. keeping up the good work

p.s. sorry for my English And thanks you all for this crucial knowledge that you transferring to the world!

 

It's True, bro!
I think now I'm feeling somekind of flatline. Insomnia and indifference to women. I had more libido when I was on PMO recently.
I try to repeal any memories of porn videos. Don't touch myself at any case.

I assume that being with girl (no matter what sex, touching or "lingam massage") would be very helpful for you mood, self-esteem, confidence and would help your brain heal or rewire itself faster. Especially if you paying for that, you can talk with her about your concern without any shame and generally be more open and relaxed. You don't owe her anything except money.

Now I have to find courage to delete my P.collection and quit smoking - one more dopamine sucker.

 

Day 30!
Wow!
Today I experienced a morning wood! First time for, i don't know, many years maybe!!!

 

GSarosi
now it's in hidden folder and doesn't bother me. But I decided I will burn it down at day 60!

Daijimbo
Let's go bro!

 

Here it will be my little journal where I will post only smthg interesting about my rebot.

Today I awakened for the erotic dream with steel morning wood. It was feeling of extreme sexual arousal, it was so strong that taken my breath away. I don't remember when I experienced something similar before.
It was very early morning and I couldn't even fell asleep after.
But my libido is still low for now.

Few minuted ago I've deleted all the favorites xxx bookmarks in my browser. And 2 mounth ago I've unsubcribed from all the publics with girls picks and etc. in all my soc.media. Seems to be helpfull.

By the way, I’ve found interesting article, says that porn affects cognitive functions(memory, attention etc.)
http://yourbrainonporn.com/can-porn-use-affect-memory-and-concentration

 

Day 33.
Today I met a girl in a bar. she was really nice and beautiful, which I had understand when she was making acquaintance with some guy. The problem is that I was sober and I really understood that I like her, and saw her eyes on me, but I didn't had any urge to meet her. And I felt absolutely nothing "downstairs", even when trying fantazizes about her a little.
I missed girls before but, I don't know why, today the aftertaste of this situation extremely awful.
It's fu**ing terrible and terifying!

 

Hey!
It's almost a month since last O and 45 days since PMO. I do not ever think that is possible!
It's only 15 days till I should delete all my P stash. It's kind of stressful, I still feel that I morally bound to it somehow. Can I keep for instance 5-10 some interesting videos, even though I won't watch them??=)
As for my current condition,
Regular girls become more attractive, definitely having +1-2 points on my scale. Some time I feel horny and some time totally indifference. I can become really hard of real fantasies, and the erections much more harder than before. Still I have some memories of videos (and will have them maybe for many years) but they not so crisp and clear but I still can have this rush of dopamine from this memories or when accidently see some P or erotics, it not so intense(but still strong) and I dont have this cravings to P urgently. Interesting that I had no wet dream still(or haven't noticed them).
Always smooth(bulletproof) mood, without any depression or anxiety. I had those waves before for sure! And my memory, my short-term memory!! Really thought that I "becoming blunt"%) Had those "O-o what I wanted me to do??". Yesterday I suddenly noticed that I don't have this any more.
So far so good.

 

Thanks for your support man!

 

Just Deleted my Stash!!
400+ Gbs

But I decided to keep(and hide) 5% of videos. I can live without them but it was just easier this way(and I really like the look of certain girls). Maybe it's a mistake but it was my decision.In some way it can be counted as a relapse cause even though I didn’t watch them longer then 5 minutes in total to sort out, I had this dopamine and horny rush, but it was totally controlled.

So MY ADVICE is: DO DELETE ALL YOUR FAVORITES AND VIDEOS ON THE START OF YOUR NOFAP JOURNEY. Than it's much harder to do and can lead you to relapse.

 

Sorry, don't fully understand the end of your post. but anyway thnks for reply))