After 168 days Nofap. . . .today is my Day 1 -- A True Story.

Day 1

Surprise. It happened. You knew it would and it did. What is surprising though is what a relief it is to have stumbled, to get your coping mechanism back. SHE's back. Available.

You smile. You want it. And now you get to have it - the embrace and the comfort knowing you can forget it all.

And, after the very first stumble in 168 days, you're still feeling pretty good. The reboot worked, and your mind is still mostly rebooted. "Wow!" You think, "it's gonna be ok. I can do this. I feel like just a normal dude watching porn. My shame is still gone! Just a little P now and again to take the edge off."

SHE watches and encourages you. It'll be different this time SHE whispers. You're in charge SHE pleads to you. Cum to me.

And you almost believe HER. It does, after all, feel different. But what is it in Her smile that you would fall to your knees for? It is entirely too alluring, too sexy, too compelling. You know eventually you'll be unable to resist...Soon you'll be a willing slave.

SHE sees you have doubts. Her lip twitches and the smile falters. For a moment a look of hatred crosses Her face and you see Her as SHE really, truly IS. A whore. A lying, cheating, disgusting, enslaving whore - Satan. SHE. hates. you.

You whisper, "I rebuke you, Satan, and all your ways."

SHE laughs and moves seductively.

Your heart beats in response. You search frantically for help. Nothing. You pray, in fear, "Jesus..."

SHE stops and looks.

"Jesus, Son of God..."

SHE frowns disdainfully.

"have mercy on me, a sinner."

SHE vanishes.

And you're free.

Free from the spell. But inside you know...

You feel Her.

Watching you with that smile.

"Jesus"

And SHE is gone again.

Freedom.

 

In my case, the devil "appears" a woman - a siren, if you prefer. If trannys were alluring to me, the devil would be a transgendered person. It's rather personal based on my own sexual preferences.