On August 3rd, after going 4 full days, I jumped off the wagon close to midnight. Twice. I've officially gone a full day without it. I want to get back on track. Thankfully I'm too tired to do anything else but sleep tonight. Hopefully I'll be able to fall asleep...when I can't is when the danger zone happens. Especially after the 3 day mark. I'm generally a lone wolf outside of work so I get lonely and become pulled in deep fantasies. I hope I can kick this habit and stop depending on it.
You are successful as long as you get back on that horse asap. Your brain is changing for better even with these set bakcs. Read my other posts for info on what to do about the 'lone wolf' problem. I'll give you a hint. Its not all just will power. There is something that is 50% of success. Cheers my brother MonkeyDo.
This is identical to my situation... 4-7 days clean, then relapse. I say, "No cell phone, laptop in my bedroom at night from this point forward." But I wonder, how realistic is this? . Yep right around 11pm-midnight as my mind churns throughout the things of the day and I try to relax, i usually wind up scratching, then grabbing my phone, just to "check the news". then it's suggestive images (maybe youtube or an old movie in my amazon library), then i'm just straight googling big tit this or latina whore or whatever, you get the point. i quickly spiral down after having the best of intentions. Wow. soooo true. this is so identical to my situation. i can't turn things around in a week or even a month, and that i what gets me so discouraged and depressed. i'm 33 and i am beginning to realize that this PMO is probably the biggest contributor to my social anxiety over the past 12 years. In college, at my job, all those YEARS, WASTED!! and now i'm finding it excruciatingly difficult to quit this habit. how can i be so NAIVE & WEAK!!
Do not feel like you have failed, because the mere fact that you are ready to get back on the wagon makes you a Champion! So shake it off and back to the battle man. You will do great!
