Inability to feel love

That's the spirit.

 

Man ive thought ive been in love loads of times.

turns out when i take away this addiction and take a good look at myself that they were just me being obsessed and having a fantasy that a girl will solve all my issues.

Sad...

but we are moving on up my friend.

 

True words. I thought the addiction changed me with its withdrawals. But I was becoming this antisocial coward all the way along. Just didn't notice it.

 

Was pretty brutal for me yesterday with this realization

the latest girl i have been really into, she actually did really like me but my demons took over and i played games so she lost interest and i was gutted for a while

but then yesterday i realize... if i really care about her i would not let her get involved with someone like the person i currently am..

that hit home man.

 

Yep. Pmo gives you a girlish mentality. Playing games, being passive agressive etc. Something usually women do. I too failed with my favorite girl because of being a sissy. It's not an excuse. It hurts even more since I know she was into me too.

 

It's a rough one man so i know the feeling but like you, i'm holding my hands up. If you accept your fault in it and learn from it, maybe it doesn't hurt so much but yeah, passive agressive, silly games, not taking action from obvious signals, i did it all.

Best part was i got butthurt when after 2 months of waiting for me to do something she moved on to a guy who jumped straight on it.

Pathetic.

 

Oh yeah. Exactly same here. Never had more obvious signs from a girl. But I was young and insecure plus the addiction. Killer combo. Got mad at a friend cause he took action and I didn't. Soooooo pathetic.

 

Wish you all the best for your journey! Stopping P, better PM, still better PMO for a longer period can change a lot regarding these issues.