I relapsed yesterday. I don't understand why I keep doing this to myself. I'm starting over again. I had the thoughts... "you proved your point, you can just do it to relax", "it's not even bad for" Now I feel terrible. All of the anxiety and depression are back. Yesterday was worse. The quick temper and frustration. This is awful. I just want to stop. Thank you for all of the encouragement and kind words yesterday.
Hi there, I relapsed today as well, and probably fell deeper into the abyss. But let's get our chins up and get rebooted! Seeing as we've reset at almost the same time, we could hold each other accountable on this thread, what say you?
I personally always felt and considered a "seccond personality" controling my mind in these situations where you totally give in. I know sounds totally wierd, maybe I should call that personality gollum as well, but after relapse you just think like "why the hell did I do it? Like I know it´s not worth it." This is just how difficult it can be to control your mind, cause sometimes it changes by itself for no reason. Really try to power up your mind, meditation worked for a lot of people on this forum.
Don't give up... It happens with all.. I know you can do it, you can fight PMO... Stay strong.. Be busy, avoid P.. You will definitely win if you believe you can do this..
Day 1 going on day 2! How has it been going so far? I tried to squeeze in a 5 minute meditation this afternoon; it was more of an exercise in self-discipline but it did help to clear my mind a little. Spent most of the day doing sports as well and it really seemed to help! As Steve mentioned, it might be useful to focus on the minor victories and take baby steps till reboot is complete.
Pretty good today. Some anxiety in the morning but got busy and it passed. It helps me to work on projects and occupy my mind. I appreciate having an AP! I'll check with you tomorrow.
You got to do it for yourself. As long you always get back up, I guarantee that you'll break through. Hang in there!
So true! Let my mind wander a little bit today but managed to divert my focus towards the end goal, guess it did help!
The urges are on me today. I know how and why to choose peace but the pull, the little voice that tells me it's OK. It's normal to M is so strong. I've resisted the little excuses I give myself. Anxiety and a quick temper ensue. It's tough right now. For me, M is not normal. It's a slippery slope to angst, depression and despair. I don't want to fall into that hole again but the desire is there. P doesn't work for me like a drink doesn't work for others. Damn. I have to just accept, let go and accept peace over tumult.
I feel you! I try to ignore that little voice inside me that tries to rationalise a relapse; it helps to just let these things happen (urges, rationalisation) but not act on them. I go for a walk and try to also think of reasons why these occur. Soon you will find yourself detached from them and it becomes more manageable.
I'm looking forward to being detached from these urges. My head hurts, I'm anxious. I'm employing as many of the techniques and suggestions as I can. They help but it all creeps back. It's a definite pull.
Same here, the urges disapear but come back quickly and I'm trying hard to not get sucked in again. Hope you've been able to stay strong. I've managed to stop myself from acting on them (sometimes at the very last minute) by concentrating on my breath, small win for resilience this past weekend =)
Had a massive urge today; it feels like a culmination of the urges of the past few days. Am anticipating tougher days ahead but at the moment I'm just hoping to see this one out.
