I feel like I'll be needing to restart soon. I feel like soon or later I'll do it and I'll have to begin everything again, since day 1. It has happened before. Sometimes my mind is like "Why are you doing this? What are you expecting from all of this? Why don't you just do it?" and I feel like it will happen, no matter what I do. It could be tomorrow, it could be next week. It is hard in the beginning, it gets easier, I don't even remember porn, but then suddenly my mind just starts to trick me like this. I try to avoid but sometimes my mind just tries to make me forget why I am doing this to convince me there's no reason, but I keep finding some reason. But I feel like some day I'll not find a reason to avoid porn before my mind tricks me into watching porn and/or masturbating. My mind right now is like "Why don't you just watch the SFW part and close it before porn begins?", like it's trying to trick me into looking at NSFW content avoiding NSFW content at the same time. It would be like looking for pornography but avoiding nudity
I understand where you are coming from. I had long streaks where everything was going well for weeks until urges came and I felt as though I could relapse at any second. I can't really advise you on what to do except not do it. Do anything else except PMO. I keep reading here how horrible people feel after a relapse. I'm telling you that it's not worth it. What goal did you set? If you set a goal and then you're almost done completing it then it could be a reason that urges are coming back.
IDK, in the beginning it was to achieve 1 month no PMO, then I got to 4 months before failing, then 1 week and I failed again. I don't think I have a goal, I think I'm just trying to get rid of it forever. I wish I could just forget of the existence of porn and just forget everything I've seen, because sometimes it just pops up in my mind. It's been a long time since I last watched porn and I still remember the name of a lot of porn I used to watch regularly even tough I don't watch anymore and I still remember the scenes, that started popping on my mind before sleep, when I'm on my bed. But it feels terrible after it happens. My mind tells me it's worth it but afterwards it's like "what the hell? Why did you trust me? Why did you do that?"
Have you tried going one week and then setting another week as goals, breaking it up? How about getting an AP also? You can talk to them when an urge comes.
No, haven't tried that. Always trying to go the longer I can. Explain a bit more about an AP. Also, would it be a problem if I watched a SFW part of a porn? It would be porn, but it would still be SFW and I could close as soon as the NSFW part is about to enter.
You can talk to an AP when you get urges and they can talk you out of relapsing. I wouldn't recommend SFW because eventually it would lead to a relapse.
Go for walk, walk away from your phone or computer. It is not worth it. I've read story after story of how horrible it feels after it is over. It is not worth it.
You can do it dude and you know that! If you didn't you would have Givin up by now but you didn't because you know you can make it. I have faith in you my freind, you worked hard for your streak and I know you'll work even harder to retain it.
Well, I tried getting an AP, but no one answered me yet. I'm not sure how AP works but I think it takes some time until someone answers, right?
I do have WhatsApp, but I don't know if I should join. "For maximum safety, we recommend only connecting through the NoFap private messaging system on the forum.", NoFap.
OK dude it's your call it's helped me out to no avail. Regardless you will always have are support on this website keep fighting bro.
same this is starting to happen to me, its awful. ijust startredirecting my thinking to objects around me, naming it outloud, nonesensical things lol, just thinking any thing besides what wants to pop into my head (scenes of fetish porn which is my (main) reason for being here)! its so scary. we got this though!!
